"N-No..." Labis ang pagkabasag ng aking boses nang makita ang taong nasa aking harapan.
Akala ko ay kung makikita ko siyang muli labis ang saya na mararamdaman ko. Akala ko ay bigla ko nalang siyang yayakapin bigla-bigla sa oras na magkita kami, iyong mag-uumapaw sa saya at galak ang puso ko sa pagtama ng aming mga mata.
I thought I would come running and throw myself at his open arms the moment our path will cross. I was expecting both of us to embrace each other tightly and tell each other that we miss feeling the warmth of each other.
But I guess all of it was just expectations and that what really happened is way different than how I vision it.
"We're very sorry to keep you waiting, Miss Devierra." Muling ulit ni Kairo sa mas malamig na tinig.
His eyes are too dark and cold for me that I could already feel my hands trembling. The way his freezing eyes gaze upon me makes my spine shiver in nervousness. It make me feel like I want to vomit my intestines.
Ramdam ko din ang panginginig ng aking mga tuhod na kung hindi pa ako aalis ay mapapaupo nalang ako sa malamig na sahig nang dahil sa paraan ng kaniyang pagtitig.
It used to be gentle and soft... I used to love how he gaze at me, the moment his eyes meet mine before was enough to calm my whole being. But what do I expect?
I left him with a broken and unfixed heart and I'm still expecting him to welcome me with open arms?
What a fool...
Of course it is reasonable and valid for him to throw that daggers look that's slowling tormenting my feelings. He has the right to resent and loathe me until all the pain I have inflicted in him subside.
He has the right to do so and for me, I don't have ay rights to feel this nervousness and fear that makes me tremble right now.
Sino ako para umastang takot sa taong ang tanging ginawa ay mahalin ako?
Do I have the right? Of course I don't!
"Xyrene!" Sigaw ni Harris nang mabilis akong tumakbo palabas sa silid na iyon.
Kahit nanginginig ang aking buong katawan ay buong lakas kong pinilit ang sariling magpatuloy sa pagtakbo sa kahabaan ng hallway habang hinahayaang rumagasa ang mapait na mga luhang pinipigilan ko kani-kanina lamang.
I couldn't endure being in the same room with the man whom I broke.
Hindi ko kayang makita ang mukha ng lalaking minahal ko at minahal ako nang hindi nasasaktan sa mga ala-alang panghabang-buhay na tumatatak sa aking isipan.
It's suffocating to see him and be with him without feeling the guilt that is slowly chopping my heart into pieces.
"Xyrene, where are you going!"
Nasa bukana na ako ng building at palabas na sana nang mapabalik ako nang dahil sa mahigpit at malakas na pagpigil ni Harris sa aking braso.
I could see the hint of confusion as well as frustration in his eyes the moment I faced him.
I tried to wiggle my hands from his hold but he's way stronger than me.
"Bitiwan mo ako, Harris." Malamig kong aniya.
Out of all people, he's the least person I could think of doing this kind of act.
How dare him set this up?
I know that this isn't coincidence and if I am not mistaken he planned this all.
Sana kung hindi niya ito pinlano, pinaalam niya kaagad sa akin na makakasama ko si Kairo sa lintek na campaign shoot na ito. Kung nasabi niya lang sana sa akin ay hindi na ako umuwi para lang dito.
