Wait for You (wlw) (Bitter spin-off)

thirty-seven

(a/n: so many ellie appearances whaat)

Mei's pov

"I was dumb" was the first thing Vic said as we sat on the bench at our usual spot on the hill near her house.

We hadn't seen each other in three days, although we'd texted quite a lot, which I appreciated because I thought she was going to want no contact at all during them. But I was pretty sure she asked to see me there so she could tell me she needed a pause.

"What?" I instinctively asked, my leg nervously bouncing up and down. I hadn't really slept the previous night. I was kind of mentally preparing myself to be broken up with.

"I was dumb. I thought I was going to need to break up with you for a while" she said, biting on her thumb's fingernail. "But that's not what I want. I only feel intense dread if I think about not being with you anymore"

"Oh" I said, feeling some relief. Maybe I was wrong.

"I love you, Mei. And I'm sorry if I freaked you out" she said, taking both my hands in hers. "I'm just scared at the thought of us not being together"

"I know" I sighed, squeezing her hands. "I am too. It's not gonna be easy. But you don't need to be sorry. And you're not dumb"

"I am, kinda" she shrugged. "I just...I knew I'm probably gonna suffer because of distance once you left anyway, and I didn't wanna go through that. But I would have suffered anyway if we weren't together anymore and that would have definitely been worse. So yes, I was dumb. But it's okay, I sometimes am"

"It's okay, we both have our moments" I chuckled. "I would have waited for you, you know. I mean, if you wanted a pause. I made you wait a whole year for me to feel ready for a relationship, it's the least I could have done"

"I could have gotten a little revenge, now that I think about it"

"I...okay, that's definitely not what I meant!" I laughed.

"Oh, I know. But can you imagine? I could have made you wait for at least a year"

"A whole year?"

"Why not" she said, shrugging with a smile.

"You couldn't stay away from me for that long..." I joked.

"Yeah, definitely" she laughed, taking my face in her hands and pressing a kiss on my lips. Damn, did it feel good to be kissed by her after days of not experiencing that. "No, but I don't think I'd be able to cope if I broke up with you anyway. Who am I gonna use as an impartial judge to my painting club drawings otherwise?"

"Oh, that's all I am to you?" I jokingly pouted.

"Kinda" she shrugged. "I'm kidding"

"You'd better"

"In the sense that you actually aren't that impartial" she soon added.

"Oh"

"Oh" she nodded.

"I am very objective, actually" I insisted.

"You'd be capable of saying I made a masterpiece if I drew a single dot on a blank canvas"

"Because anything that you do is genuinely amazing" I said, looking very convinced.

"Yeah, okay" she shook her head with a laugh, kissing me again. "You know, I've decided I wanna enroll in university again next year. I think I'd genuinely like to continue working in the academic world, maybe end up teaching philosophy or something like that. I've always wanted to teach"

"That's...that's great! You definitely should!" I said, extremely happy for her and the fact that she'd figured what she wanted to do.

"I'll apply for New York too, obviously. But I don't know if I'll get in. It's so competitive" she sighed.