Depth Of The Abyss

XXXVII: Overthinking

Ciara's POV

"What's wrong?" Harry asked, he was helping me prepare our foods. Naandito kami ngayon sa isang hotel sa davao, to stay for the night and we will continue our quest when the dawn breaks.

"Neysha's been silent." I said as I put the utensils above the table.

"Hon' she's always like that." Umiling ako.

"No, not that! Look." Tumingin siya kay Neysha, "she's been out of her self lately and it got worse after our encounter with the fates."

Simula kanina ay nakatulala lang siya, hindi nagsasalita.

"Maybe she was just stressed."

"Or maybe the fates had said something to her." I squinted while looking at her, Harry laughed and he made me sit down.

"You worry too much," he leaned over and gave me a peck, "we will ask her later." I pouted, peck lang? He rubbed my hair and then he called them.

"Let's eat, everyone." Lumapit na sina Zia at Kelis but Neysha remained seated.

"What happened to her?" Z asked.

"My question too," I said. Z snapped her hand and the harsh wind woke Neysha's up from spacing out. Napalingon siya sa amin at ngumiti ng alanganin.

"I'm sorry.." she sat down beside me.

"Neysha, are you okay? Did something happen?" I was putting rice on her plate and I saw her stiffened.

"N-nothing," she cannot even look at me, "I'm just worried about the other team." Lie, but I smiled, I let her be. If she wanted to say it she will, there's no need to push her.

"Oh right, you don't need to worry, I'm sure they'll be fine. For now, eat and then rest later okay?" She nodded hesitantly.

We ate in silence, after that, Neysha offered to wash the dishes and we let her be.

Pumunta na ako sa kwarto para maglinis ng katawan at matulog, Harry and I shared one room.

Pagkatapos kong maligo ay siya na ang sumunod, umupo ako sa kama at napatingin sa kisame.

This will be our last quest, after our quest to Mnemosyne we will go back to the Academy, but going back this time feels heavy.

The bathroom door opened, revealing Harry with his sleep wear, a buttoned polo and panjama. He was rubbing his wet red hair with a towel and he looked good doing that.

"Hon'"

"Hmm?" He took the chair to the vanity table and he sat in front of me, "what's wrong?"

"Don't you have a plan to see your mom?" Natigilan siya sa tanong ko.

"I-" he hung his towel on his nape. "I don't have time for that.." he smiled at me weakly so I know how he wanted to see his mother before we went to war.

"This might be the last time.." napayuko ako at pinaglaruan ang kamay ko.

"It won't be." Kinuha niya ang mga kamay ko, napatingin ako sa kaniya, "why are you so down? Don't worry, I'm sure we will spend a lot of time after the upcoming war," he said that with his most optimistic voice but it didn't hide how hopeless he is.

I know for sure we're thinking the same, that maybe these will be our last days.

"Harry." His lips parted, I barely called him in his name. I stared at him, memorizing every part of him.

I looked at our hand, and then at his eyes, and at his lips. We've been together for years but we never did more than kiss.

And it's frustrating how I remembered that I was the one who insisted on the kiss. He was so careful towards me, he wouldn't make physical contact with me, touch me, hold me or what so ever.

And I thank him and understand him for that. He arrived in my life in a stage where I was vulnerable at any contact, I was scared of people, humans, especially men. He brought me to the Academy, he respects me and he shows me how a woman should be treated. He's such a kind and gentle man that I cannot stop myself from falling in love with him.

I was thankful enough that he loved me back, thinking back at my past I was scared that he wouldn't love a woman like me, I once thought that he only pity me that's why he's kind to me. So I'm thankful that he loves me for who I am.

"I love you." I smiled at him and I kissed him on his forehead, "and thank you for loving me." He frowned.

"Why are you talking like that-" I kissed him on the lips for a second and then I let go.

"Hon' we haven't done that." His eyes looked dazed, he's staring on my lips.

"The what?" I pouted.

"That thing!" This time he looked at me, confused.

"What thing?" I almost rolled my eyes but I remained calm.

"That intimate thing a normal couple does."

"Kisses?"

"More than that!" His lips parted, and then he laughed making me frown even more.

Why is he laughing?

"Oh god!" He stopped from laughing and then he stood up, he put his towel on the rock. "Let's sleep, Hon' okay?" Umiling ako.

"I want to do it with you."

"We will, don't worry." He smirked.

"Right now!" He chuckled and he gave me a peck.

"After our wedding, yes." I blinked, wedding? He wants to marry me?

"Harry-" nakahiga na siya, humarap ako sa kaniya at umupo sa tabi niya. "I want to do it now."

"No." He said firmly, sumimangot ako.

"Why? You don't want me?" I asked in a sad tone, his lips parted in surprise. Maybe he's wondering why I am acting like this.

He sat down, "hon', I want you, I want everything about you. But this is not the right time for that, okay?" He speak gently, he held my chin. "I know why you're doing this, we have a lot of time ahead, don't over think, we will do everything you want I assure you." He pulled me towards him and wrapped me in his arms. "I love you..." He said that so softly I almost cry, I hug him tight.

"What if-"

"I said don't over think." I laughed and bit his shoulder which is nothing to him. Humiwalay ako sa kaniya nang bahagya at ngumiti nang malaki.

"You know what."

"What?"

"You look like someone..." I smirked, his eyebrows furrowed, "who'll marry me." Kinuha ko ang kamay niya at pinagsalikop iyon sa akin. "Wala nang bawian, you said you'll marry me." I showed him our intertwined fingers and gave him one of my brightest smile. He smiled and he kissed me on my forehead.

"Wala nang bawian."

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