Love on the brain

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"You do?" Mo asked as she rolled her blunt. I laughed it off and told everyone I was joking, I couldn't let anyone know Kabelo and I are about to get into a relationship. "I don't have a man but I need y'all to shut up about Jabari" I laughed as I got into bed. They actually stopped talking about Jabari and Lesego started talking about her toxic relationship with her ex girlfriend. "She always has excuses for cheating and I forgive them. I keep hoping she'll change but she didn't, she can't" Lesego said sadly and all the other girls were laughing at her and telling her to boss up.

"It's not that I easy, I get it Lesego. To be honest, toxic relationships are the most hardest to leave" I felt Mo's eyes pierce the side of my face as I spoke about it more. "You definitely have experience with this" Lesego said and I nodded. Lesego laid next to me and asked me to tell her more. "I met this guy, Kabelo, at school and all I can say is he is one of the attractive non-committal guys"

Flashback

Tumi took my hand and led me to a group of guys standing by a tree during break, that's Kabelo's group. Kabelo was the ultimate bad boy in the school, he'd get into trouble for being opinionated and he has well known for his nonchalant demeanour.

It's Valentine's Day and he's dressed in all black and oversized clothes. He's piercing eyes, an intense shade of brown. He's aura of quiet confidence and authority radiates from him. Seeing no smile on his face made his beauty almost unsettling. He stood tall with his head above all his other friends around him, his stature commanding attention, can you tell I don't want to go there? He is intimidating.

I stood next to him, trying by all means to ignore everyone and pray I'm unnoticeable. I probably am, he probably thinks I'm being rude. "Hi Kabelo" I nervously say, not making eye contact at all. "Hey... how do you know my name?" I slowly smiled as I looked into his eyes. He sounds so kind, he sounds so friend, rather. "Who doesn't know your name?" Tumi asked as she grabbed my hand and led me away, like she knew this was a start of something crazy.

End of flashback

"He has major commitment issues. I've tried to convince him otherwise, tried to ask him to be with me but he denied each time. We think it's right person, wrong timing" I concluded as if that's where our story starts or ends. Mo looked at me as she exhaled some smoke, "No you think that because you're delusional, both you and Lesego. You guys need to move the fuck on for real."

Mo has been in relationships, she's been in those typical high school relationships that don't really mean anything or do anything to you, with my understanding. She hasn't been in character developing relationships or relationships that mess you up. She has been single for years now, which is a great thing because she's focusing on herself and has no worries. I wish I did it like her and not rushed to fall in love because now I'm stuck in complicated situations that could've been avoided.

Everyone got ready to sleep. I kept staring at Kabelo's text and the text I sent Jabari. I asked myself what I'd do if they both want me at the same time. I don't think it's a crime to entertain both just to see who's more serious about me. It's not like Kabelo and I are gonna start dating today . I laid in bed, thinking about what Jabari and I did today. It felt so good, we have unfinished business and that's why I have to see him again. I can't help but to think about what could've happened if we weren't interrupted. The passion between us, I never knew I wanted him so badly until I had him.

I quickly archive his chats and scroll through TikTok. I won't allow a man to make me seem so desperate. Was he using me for my body and my beauty? The only way I'll feel better about it is if I ignore him, the thought of him and forget I ever did anything with him. Okay maybe I should check his profile one last time.

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He is actively ignoring me, I say in disbelief.

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