Love on the brain

One night only

He scrunched his face in disgust. "You let Jabari break your virginity? Why?" He chuckled and I scrunched my face, isn't he mad. "Clearly my brother and I have the same type" he joked and I looked concerned. "Babe?" He looked at me and asked what's wrong. "You're not mad that I've had sex with Jabari?" I asked.

"It takes time for me to get mad, I suggest you start explaining yourself" he said and I nodded. "We met at my best friend's dinner, had sex and he ignored me afterwards" I said and his face changed. "That was your first time? He knew it was your first time?" He asked and I nodded. "He's a jerk for that!" He said and I agreed.

"Was it raw?" He asked and I let out a laugh. "No" I said. "I'm definitely not talking to him for a while" he said and I asked him why. "As much as I'm not mad at him, it's upsetting. I hate that both my..." he hesitated to speak and I changed my face. "Both your what?" I asked in irritation.

"I didn't mean it like that" he said, "but you and Marissa both once had sex with him, it feels crazy" he continued and I nodded my head. "I didn't know you by then, maybe if Jabari spoke to me and told me about his family and continued to speak to me, we wouldn't be here" I said as I stood up and went to the restroom.

I felt a bit irritated at the mention of Marissa's name, I don't even understand why I feel this way. I walked into the bathroom and I used the toilet. Once I was done, I walked out and my eyes locked with this gorgeous lady, coloured lady with green eyes. She was tending to her breast leaks. "You're so gorgeous!" She looked at me and teared up. "Thank you so much, I don't feel as gorgeous, you know!" She said. "Why?" I asked buying time in here so I don't have to go back to Jermaine.

"I'm just going through a lot right now, my fiancé wants to call of the engagement and I'm not even ready for that. We just had a child and I don't think I'm ready to be a single parent" she said and something said this is Marissa. "Marissa, by the way" she held out her hand and I took it. "Kele" I lied. "Marissa, everything will be fine, just hang in there." I gave her words of encouragement and walked out. I can't believe that just happened.

I went straight to Jermaine fuming, not knowing what to believe. "We should go" I say sitting down, making sure she doesn't see us. "Marissa, your baby mother, is here and I'm not sitting in a restaurant with her here." I said as I took my bag and walked out. Jermaine walked behind me and we made it out of Kream. I continued walking ahead of him, trying to comprehend what she meant by fiancé. "You proposed to Marissa?" I asked before getting into the car. "What?"

"You proposed to Marissa?" I asked and he rubbed his chin. "That's why it's so hard to break it off. Drop me off at home" I said and he grabbed my thigh. "Jermaine, I'm not doing this with you. Take me home" I asked him calmly. I knew he was good to be true. If it's not Kabelo, it's Jermaine. I don't wanna be with anyone anymore.

"Naledi, let's talk about this" he said and I pushed his hand off me. "I don't wanna talk about anything with you Jermaine. You kept it from me. When were you planning on telling me? When? Is she even crazy for real or was that just a lie too? To get me to have sex with you so you can just have your cake and eat it too?" I asked him and he tried to talk to me but I wasn't letting him.

"Save it... for the next motherfucker who wants to hear it!" I said to him and he tightened his grip on the steering wheel. "Naledi, baby, listen to me" he said trying not to raise his voice. "She cheated on me, why would I get married to someone who cheated on me with my brother?" He raised his voice and I looked at him in shock.

"People do it all the time Jermaine! What makes you different" I screamed at him too. "I can't lose you!" He said as he took me to his apartment. "So you'd rather kidnap me and feed me lies? I said take me home!" I said getting tired of arguing with him. We got to his apartment and I walked to the gate. He followed me and picked me up. "I'm gonna scream if you don't let me go" I laughed, finding it cute that he doesn't want to let me go. "Can we talk it out before you leave Atleast?" He said and I agreed. He carried me to his apartment and I sat on the couch.

"You lied to me, you let me find out through her which makes me feel like a fool and then you keep me here against my own will? What the fuck is wrong with you Jermaine?" I said as I walked up and down the dinning room. We stood in the dark, letting the moonlight light up the room but we argued in the dark, like we were both not ready to accept the truth, were not ready to face each other and face the truth. "We were engaged while she was pregnant but I want to call it off because I met you and I love you Naledi" he said and all I could think about was how red the flag was. Is he love bombing me and manipulating me? Had he been controlling me all this time? "Can you just let me go Jermaine?" I asked peacefully.

"I don't wanna fight with you" I said and he interrupted me. "Why? Our love is not worth fighting for?" He begged and I ignored him. "I just don't want to be with you anymore" I say, with tears in my eyes and he walked up to me. "This is one obstacle Naledi" he said as he held my hand. "It's much more than that Jermaine. Can't you see there's a power dynamic here? I thought I could overlook it but I can't. You could be controlling me and I wouldn't know" I say as I wiped my tears.

"And I would do that?" He said. "I thought you'd never lie to me and you did. I asked you so nicely, to tell me what's happening with you and Marissa, and what did you tell me? What happened to break up sex? Was it really break up sex or was it casual sex in a relationship?" I asked as I grabbed my phone and tried to call an Uber but they kept cancelling on me.

"I only lied about that because I knew you wouldn't believe me if I told you the truth" he said. "I'm the only one who can determine that! You don't have the right to take that decision away from me!" I said as I put my phone on the counter.

I walked up to him and grabbed his face as I saw a teardrop on his face and I kissed him. He held me tight and kissed me back. With no hesitation, we knew what our bodies wanted and if this was for the last time? Let it be for the last time. I felt his hands lift up my dress and I unbuckled his pants. He led us to the bedroom and gently pushed me on the bed. I kicked my shoes off while he fully undressed before coming to me.

Unlike our usual passionate sessions, this time was different. We made love, it was slow and sensual. We couldn't see each other, we were in the dark and everything was deliberate. Jermaine was gentle with me, he broke my heart but comforted me in the only language we understood, sex.

"I love you" he groaned as we both reached our climax, he held me as close as possible to his body like he was trying to mend both souls so they can be one. I scratched his bag as I let loose and let our souls connect for the last time. "I love you too" I cried softly, not wanting him to notice

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