Love on the brain

Bad luck

After 2 weeks of not going to school, mainly because the first week was test week and I only went to write my tests, the second week was filled with bed rotting, being sick and sadness. I'm finally going to school today. Tshepang and Kedi, her girlfriend, convinced me to come back to school. Kedi and I are in the same school and she was the one who provided me with schoolwork and everything.

Mo is here for recess and she's coming over this weekend, that's the only thing I'm looking forward to. I eventually made peace with Kabelo, I felt bad for leaving him at such a time, he doesn't have anybody else and yes he's the bad guy but nobody deserves to raise their child alone.

I wore my oversized hoodie and matching sweatpants since it was cold. I wore a beanie because I didn't do my hair and I left for school. I waited for Kabelo to come pick me up, as promised, instead of using taxi's or Ubers.

"You're glowing, who's making you happy?" He asked me and I laughed and playfully pushed him away. I told him about Jermaine and how it went down and he has been supportive. "I got my heart broken, I'm not doing that again" I said as I connected my phone to the Bluetooth.

"How's things with you know, Zandi" I asked, he hated talking about it but I loved talking about it because that's the only way I'd get to hear about his emotions. "My family paid for damages and now she feels like being a mother" he said. "It was bound to happen. She's gonna feel it more when she gives birth. The connection between a mother and a child is unbreakable. Do you know what gender you're having?" I asked and he said it's a boy. "Kabelo, I hope God blessed you with a girl" I say and he laughed. "That's a blessing? I mean my bad, every child is a blessing but a girl? Imagine having a mini you in the house, I'd die" he joked.

We got to school and he dropped me off at the drop off zone. "Thank you" I said to him before dapping him up. "Text me when you're done" he said and I saw him park his car. He's on his bullshit again. I shake my head and walk to my maths class, worried sick or whatever, my tummy didn't feel right. I felt like I have butterflies in my tummy and it was upset at the same time.

"Turn to page 3, there's more exercises on this" I heard Jermaine speak and I opened the door and walked in casually. "Ms Dlamini you're late" he said, not even looking at me. "Sorry sir" I said politely as I sat in my chair. I'm the highest in the group, all because of his help and I'm grateful but now I have to find another tutor to help me and that's hard to find but I will. I sat next to Kedi and we were helping each other work.

"Ms Motaung, I'd like to have a word with you afterschool" I heard him say to this other girl and it bothered me. I couldn't help but to think about him having the same relationship with her. I rolled my eyes as I kept doing my work.

The lesson was over and it was time for my next class. Kedi left for the bathroom before time and I packed my stuff slowly as I looked at Jermaine go to his office. Once everyone left I went to his office. I opened his door and he was on the phone. "Let me call you back in a second" he said before hanging up. "Thuli? Really?" I say to him.

"You know this office is out of bounds right?" He calmly spoke and I felt my blood boil. "Oh now it's off bounds? I bet it's not off bounds for the other girls you be fucking in here" I say to him and he scrunched his face. "Naledi, please. You don't come to school for 2 weeks and you think you know everything" he spoke and I felt myself sweat more and my heartbeat rapidly.

"Can't you get a hoe who isn't in my class?" I asked hesitantly as I felt confused and disoriented. "Naledi?" He spoke to me but I instantly felt dizzy. "Jermaine?" I cry as I felt weird, I felt like somethings wrong. "Naledi?" He called for me but my legs buckled and Jermaine's voice faded into the distance.

Monday afternoon

I opened my eyes to see Jermaine's worried face hovering my face. "Hey, you're awake," he said softly as he held my hand. I tried to sit up but I felt a wave of dizziness. "Easy. You fainted. We're at the doctor" I heard Jermaine speak as he massaged my shoulder.

A doctor walked in wearing a stethoscope. "Welcome back Naledi, I'm Dr Mkhize. How are you feeling?" She asked and I rubbed my forehead trying to remember. "I mean...I was arguing with Jermaine, we were arguing and then... I don't know what happened next" I said trying to understand.

Dr Mkhize nodded, " you're experiencing dizziness, sweating and rapid heartbeat. Your blood pressure is a bit low. We'll run tests to ensure everything's okay" she said with a gentle smile. Before I proceed, when was your last period?" She asked and I scratched my head. "I had one last week." The doctor grabbed some stuff and walked behind me. "We'll do a pregnancy test just to rule it out" she said and my eyes grew bigger.

I looked at Jermaine who looked nervous. "I can't be pregnant though" I said, trying to reason with myself. The doctor came back after a few minutes and I sat up. "Naledi, you're approximately 2 weeks pregnant, very early in the pregnancy" she said with a smile and I looked at Jermaine. Jermaine's eyes were fixed on mine. He took a deep breath, his expression shifting to concern. "Is she... is everything okay?" He asked and I felt tears falling down my face, what do you mean I'm pregnant.

"The pregnancy is viable, Naledi's overall health is good. However, we need to monitor Naledi closely due to her fainting spell" she spoke and I wiped my tears as the doctor gave us a moment alone. I struggled to comprehend being pregnant with Jermaine's child, being pregnant at 19.

"We'll figure it out, together" he said as he kissed my hand but I wasn't even present. I hear everything but my mind is shut. How am I going to tell my parents that I'm pregnant with a 26 year old's baby? Do I even want to keep it? What the actual? I gazed into Jermaine's eyes and I felt the emotions of fear, uncertainty and...love?

"I'll prescribe you some prenatal vitamins and schedule a follow up meeting. Meanwhile, Naledi, take it easy and stay hydrated." As the doctor left, Jermaine helped me down and held me tightly in a hug. "Are you okay?" He whispered and I broke down and cried. "I... I don't know." Jermaine looked at me and kissed my forehead, "we'll face this together."

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We all knew this was going to happen😂
What do you think is her next step?