Love on the brain

Halo

I got to the hospital and Jay stood there, surprised to see me pregnant. "You're pregnant too?" He asked and I didn't answer him, I was worried about Kabelo. "Where is he?" I asked and Jay walked with me to the ward. "Zandi just gave birth" he said as we were speed walking. We walked to the maternity ward, Kabelo and Zandi's mom were standing outside. I gave him a long hug and I could tell her was worried. "What's wrong?" I asked and he looked at me with so much stress. "It's Zandi" he replied and I scrunched my face.

"She was giving birth and then something went wrong" he continued as his voice trembled. "I tried asking but the doctors aren't telling me anything." He continued and my eyes widened. "Don't worry" I said because that's all I could say. We sat there and prayed with her mom, comforted each other too.

The doctor approached us and they both stood up at once. "I'm afraid we tried everything we could, but Zandile suffered a severe hemorrhage during delivery. We couldn't save her." The doctor said and Zandi's mom cried loudly. Jay held her mother while Kabelo face crumpled. "What about the baby?" He stammered.

"The baby is healthy, a beautiful girl. We're taking care of her in the NICU." He said. I wrapped my arms around Kabelo, holding him as I offered him comfort. "How did this happen?" He asked in disbelief as we sat beside Zandi's crying mother. "Sometimes, despite our best efforts, complications arise. We'll discuss the details later." The doctor said. "Best effort? You call this best effort? If it was your best effort, my baby would've been alive!" Zandi's mom said as she cried in Jays arms and Kabelo went over to Zandi's mom. I rubbed my tummy as I felt anxious about giving birth. I wouldn't want to die like that.

"I need to see my baby" he said and I accompanied him to the NICU. His baby was born on my birthday, that's so cute. I'll only bring it up when he's okay. We walked towards the ward and he was anxious. His sharp jawline was clenched and his eyes were fixated on the path ahead. "Relax, I know this is tough but you're meeting your daughter for the first time" I said thinking about the fact that it's a girl. He always wanted a boy, but it's a girl. It's a sign, a gift from God.

"Mr Moeng, congratulations on your daughter's arrival. She's doing wonderful" the nurse said as she showed him to his daughter. His eyes softened as he saw his tiny baby, surrounded by wires and monitors. "Can I hold her?" He whispered and the nurse nodded as she helped him.

I watched him as she held his tiny baby, my eyes filled with tears and my heart softened. He looks so proud and happy to be a dad. Watching Kabelo hold his baby made me realise that he might change, change for the better. He might become a better man and all the things he does to females might change because he has a girl. "She's so small" he whispered and I smiled.

"She's perfect, Kabelo" I said and he smiled. "Why are you crying? You and crying" he said and I smiled. "You're a father now Pookie!" I say softly and he smiled. "What are you gonna name her?" I asked and he smiled. "Onalerona Zandile Moeng" he said and I smiled. "That's cute!" I said and he smiled at me.

"This is my gift to you" he said before laughing softly. "Happy birthday Brat" he said and I smiled. "How convenient" I said and we both laughed. The nurse interrupted, "Mr Moeng, we need to discuss the arrangements for the babies care and your support system." Kabelo nodded his head, he was so determined "I'll do whatever it takes." I stood back a bit, letting them discuss all the dynamics and everything. "Our family will also talk about that but I live with my mother, I'm sure she can help with Ona." He said and I nodded. "I can help with anything else, if you need me" I said from a place of love.

It's not a secret that I love Kabelo, the love I have for him will definitely overflow onto Ona because she's his baby. Kabelo looked so serious, it made me calm down. Calm down from all my stresses and concerns about my family dynamic. I started feeling like, do I really did Jermaine? He is the father of my child and that will always be the case but he isn't my man and maybe I should go back home. Home being Kabelo. He has been pleading with me, fighting for us to always be in each other's life and even with his wrongs, Kabelo always fights for us.

Right now we're both in vulnerable states, he lost his baby's mother and I lost the man I love. I won't make a move on him, our dynamic changed too but I will always be by his side. I feel guilty for falling pregnant and moving on from Kabelo after our one fight. I don't even think I was thinking straight. He was so insensitive and he made me feel like a fool and maybe I should've stayed longer and spoken to him. I would've been with him without anyone giving us problems.