Love on the brain

Karma

Kabelo🖤

Just tell me you don't love me no more!
Yes we're keeping the streak alive but are we talking? Nah.
Call me when you start caring!😂

Kabelo man! You know I care bout you, I've been meaning to talk to you actually. I'll see you at Kedi's birthday party on Saturday.

I don't wanna go, Jay's gonna be there and baby mama's sick.

I'll see you before then, if you're actually not going

Don't let the streak die Dumbo!

Whatever🙄

"Earth to Naledi" Jermaine said as we got to his mom's house. I looked at him with no facial expressions. "Baby, I'm sorry-" I cut him off immediately. "Save it" I said, knowing it's not the first time he has outbursts like this and acts dismissive when I have an issue. I don't care if it's hormonal or not, he knows better and I always tell him to think before he speaks.

"Baby..."
"No Jermaine, can we just go in and get this over and done with?" I asked him as I opened my own door, something I never do, even when we're angry, I just had to go out because I know he would never stop trying to apologise or whatever.

Today I'm meeting Jermaine's mom. She was in Germany this whole time so Jermaine told her about it over the phone but we never met. I walked in holding a bouquet of flowers and a gift. I didn't know what to expect. I think his mom is more calm than my parents, only because Jermaine is older and Jermaine is the man.

He knocked on the door and he opened. He got in and greeted his mother and his aunt, I stood in the corner not walking deeper in. "Where's the girl Jermaine?" His mother asked with a strong American accent, South Africa couldn't change it. He came to me and brought me to the lounge. "Good evening ms Sage and ms Jackson" I said softly and she smiled as she gave me a hug and took the gifts from me. "Call me Nia" Jermaine's mom asked and I smiled.

"You're so gorgeous!" Jermaine's mom complimented me. "She doesn't look pregnant at all! You take good care of your body girl!" Ms Jackson, Jermaine aunt said and I smiled softly, feeling flattered. "Sit down!" She told me as she got seated next to me. "How's it carrying my grand baby?" Nia asked and I smiled. "It's going well, I've had ups and downs with it but it's all good." I answered.

Jermaine's phone buzzed and he stood up to answer it, he kissed my cheek before leaving. He left us to chat. I wasn't uncomfortable, I was actually quite relaxed. His mother and aunt aren't scary people, or as strict as my parents. "I was roundabout your age when I had my second baby, Jabari" she said with her deep, feminine voice.

I couldn't stop admiring her, she looked like Nia Long, she was the average female height and she looked like she was in her later 20s, like she was Jermaine's sister.

A few minutes later, Jermaine entered with Jabari. "Hey, sorry to interrupt" he said not recognising me from the back. Mia's eyes lit up and she called Jabari to give her a hug. As he got up from the hug and turned to look at 'the mysterious woman who's carrying his brother's seed" his eyes landed on mine. For a few seconds, confusion flooded his face but he quickly masked it with a neutral face.

"Jabari, this is Naledi, my pregnant girlfriend and babe, this is Jabari, my younger brother." As Jermaine introduced us I had flashbacks of us meeting, the mini walk we took and the kissing and the virginity breaking. I took his veined hand shook it, "Nice to meet you Jabari" I say.

"Likewise" he looked at me like he really had more to say but he didn't say anything. He dapped Jermaine up with a great smile. "Congratulations man" he said. "Well I'm gonna head out, I've got some errands to run" he said as he headed out. Jabari's gaze drifted to me once more before he left. Who knew I'd see my virgin breaker, the man who ghosted me after having sex with me in such conditions? Is it Karma? I don't know?

We got into the car, Nia and ms Jackson followed in the very same Audi Jabari and I were... I don't even wanna think about it. I felt Jermaine's hand squeeze my thigh and I looked at him. "I love you" he said and I nodded, he knows I love him. "You're not gonna say it back?" He asked me and I shrugged. "You know I do" I mumbled turning to look out the window.

I know he hates it when I don't talk to him, I hate it too. I really wanted to talk about his mother but I was so irritated that he chose to say pleasing me is tiring over apologising or saying it nicely.

Jermaine and I are a perfect couple. We know how to love each other and we know how to make each other feel loved but there's the downside of things and it's this. Jermaine gets his off days where he doesn't feel like being a boyfriend and then he's just go for a run or chills with his bros. We fight about it all the time because he avoids conflict at all costs and when it erupts, it does more damage than if he has said long before.

I love my man, I really do but he's a lot and maybe it's me and my hormones but can you blame me?