Love on the brain

Lovin' you

"Babe, I had to fetch Marissa and Gabby from her cousins house" he said and something didn't feel right. "She doesn't have a car?" I asked as I carried on scrolling on Instagram so I don't get mad. "It's in for service" he answered and I looked at him. "How long are we gonna be doing this for Jermaine?" I asked. "I just offered her lift , she's the mother of my child" he said and I shook my head.

"Something makes me uncomfortable with her, I don't know what it is but I just don't trust her around you." I said and he nodded as he took my hand and kissed it. "I understand, fully mama" he said sending chills down my spine. "But you have to trust me" he said and he just looked sexy doing that. These are the type of thoughts that got me pregnant.

"We going home?" He asked and I smiled and said yes. He was so gentle with me, I loved it. He treated me like an egg. We listened to Snoh Aalegra in silence, his eyes were fixated on the road and he held my hand and kept kissing it while I looked at him love me. I listened to Snoh sing 'DO 4 LOVE' so delicately and it triggered the words "I love you" I whispered and he smiled before looking over to me. "I love you too" he said before licking my hand. "Ew Jermaine!" I playfully laughed.

He took a detour in the mountains of west cliff, driving through his dream neighbourhood and spoke about our dreams, goals and aspirations. "I want to build my family a big home right here" he said as he parked across an empty plot. "Hopefully it's with you" he said and I smiled at him. "God has his way of doing things but I really hope he sees through to my heart and sees who I want it to be" he said as he rubbed my flat tummy.

"You keep rubbing it like it's something" I laugh. "I'm glad we found out earlier so we can watch our little love bug grow" he said and I kissed him. We are so in love.

Flashback

"What do you want from me Jermaine" I asked furiously as I walked towards his car, parked in the driveway. I walked out wearing my hello kitty pajamas and my pink gown with puffy eyes and a bonnet, I looked a mess. "Can you just get in the car and listen to me for once in your life" he firmly spoke and I tried to walk back inside.

He held me and I turned around. "Unless you don't mind having this conversation on your front yard with the potential of your dad pulling up in any minute" he said and I reconsidered it. I got in his car and he drove to the nearest park.

"You can't be mad at me for getting you pregnant" he said and I laughed. "Yes I can and I will! You did this on purpose" I yelled at him. "That makes perfect sense to you? That I'd just purposefully get you pregnant, what would I achieve from that? Ignoring the fact that you're a 19 year old having unprotected sex with me. You're grown enough to get contraceptives but you didn't." He yelled back.

"Oh so it's my fault" I asked. "I never said that, it's not a fault, I'm not calling my child a fault and that's what I'm trying to remind you and tell you! We both did this and we're both responsible for it. You saw how this baby was conceived, for you to think it's a fault that's foolish. If that's what you're gonna keep telling yourself then so be it! But we're about to become parents and just the way you were riding my dick and going crazy on it? That's the way you have to own up to being my baby's mother!" He firmly spoke and I kept quiet.

"I love you and I never contradicted myself. I will say it again, I love you Naledi Dlamini! I'm not going anywhere, you can avoid my calls all you want, block me, hate me for loving you, hate me for what our love created, that's on you but I'm going to keep on doing it! Even when it's hard, like now!" He yelled. "I hate yelling but if that's the only way you'll hear me, again, so be it!" He said and I sobbed. All of the frustration, all of the anger towards him disappeared. He was right and as much as I haven't accepted it, I will eventually because we're in this forever.

End of flashback

We got home and immediately, I took off my heels and ran myself a bath. "You wanna take a bath with me?" I asked him and he smiled before kissing me, "I'd love to" he said and I smiled. I poured the bath essential oils and bath salts, I added a bit of foam bath just to make it look cute.  I switched on the candles and he walked in, naked. I let out a laugh because I didn't expect that. "Babe? I didn't expect you yet" I said as I sat on the toilet and peed.

He undressed me slowly while touching my body, my boobs were sensitive so touched them gently. "I hope this water isn't too hot, I don't want my baby to shrivel up and burn" he said and I laughed at him as we both cuddled up in the water.

I started singing 'Lovin' you' by Minnie Riperton. I sang it with my bad voice but he's used to it. "And every time that we, ooh, I'm more in love with you" I sang as leaned into his shoulder.