Love on the brain

Feel

"Lwandle?" I shouted as I walked up the stairs. I heard moaning and I was so confused, not really confused but it was weird. "Lwandle I'm home!" I shouted as I opened my bedroom door to Lwandle having sex with her boyfriend on my bed. "The fuck?" I scrunch my face in actual confusion. "Get the fuck out!" I yell before walking away. "On my bed Lwandle!" I scream.

I walked to the bathroom and packed my toiletries for the sleepover. "I don't understand why you would do that? As if you don't have a bed. This is disrepectful!" I slammed my door behind them and called Jermaine to tell him all about it. "Babe, did I not just walk in on Lwandle and her man fucking on my bed?" I asked and he laughed, he was in the car driving to his mother's.

We spoke about it and I told him I'm done. I took a shower and wore my short black satin dress and my black Versace dupe platforms. I opened my WhatsApp to see Kabelo's message "I'm here" and I scrunched my face. People are testing me today.

I walked outside and stood in his face. "What do you want, how did you even know I'm home?" I asked. "It doesn't matter, you look great and smell good too, where are you off to in that little black dress Brat?" he said as he held my hand. I will always have a soft spot for him so I thanked him before inviting him inside. We sat in the lounge and I sat next to him, I could tell something is wrong. "Promise me you won't get mad." He said and I just looked at him, waiting for him to finish. "Remember Tshepang told you we don't chill as a squad anymore?" I slowly nodded my head trying to make something up. "I got Zandi pregnant" he dropped a bombshell on me and I didn't know how to react.

I stood up and walked to the other side of the room, I felt my stomach drop and my hands got sweaty. Zandi is Jay's ex girlfriend, why Kabelo would do such a thing, I don't know. "She wants to get rid of it but I keep convincing her no so she said she'll give it to me" he said like that's supposed to make me feel better. "Kabelo what?" I said not knowing what else to say. "What the actual fuck?" I scrunched my face. I felt betrayed. "How far along is she? Was it a hook up or what?" I asked and he stood up trying to approach me but I stopped him.

"She's 4 months pregnant, we were dating." I felt my heart break in a million pieces, I couldn't even understand why he's telling me all of this. "You told me 2 months ago that you weren't ready for a relationship. You couldn't even touch me Kabelo" I said. "Get out" I said calmly and he tried to speak but I yelled at him in tears and he still stayed. "Kabelo go!" I ugly cried as I stumbled on my feet and he caught me.

I felt the anger and sadness in my body that I threw hands and he held me. "I'm sorry" he whispered and I cried. "Kabelo leave!" I cried and he held me tight that I couldn't move. "Why did you do this to me!" I yelled at him before grabbing on to him and crying. I don't even know why I'm crying, I don't understand where these tears are coming from, I think it's all the emotions I've been suppressing. I looked at him once I was done and he brought me water.

"Why did you tell me?" I asked him and he waited for me to drink the water. "I can't do this without you Naledi. To be honest, I know it's crazy of me but she doesn't want the child." He said and I scrunched my face, "you want me to... Kabelo go away, please. I have somewhere to be right now" I said thinking about how he wants me to be this child's stepmother or he wants me to give him emotional stability.

"Please, we'll talk when I'm free" I asked him and he nodded before walking out. I ran up to my bathroom and re did my make up before Jermaine comes here. I took a shot of my sister's tequila and listened to some Beyoncé. 20 minutes later Jermaine pulled up and I grabbed my overnight bag and walked to the car and he was standing there with another bunch of flowers, this time my favourites, Lillie's and tulips.

"Hey" he smiled at me and I noticed Kabelo's car at the end of the road, what level of psycho is this. "Hey baby" I said as I kissed him and grabbed the flowers. He opened the door for me and I got in and we drove, passing Kabelo smoking outside the car. "Isn't that?" He said and I nodded. "He's losing his mind" I said as I put the flowers in the back. "I missed you already!" I smiled before stealing a kiss. He put his hand in between my thighs and I smiled.

"I want you so badly, I wanna ditch dinner for you, there's dinner and dessert at home" I said as I Iifted myself up, took off my panties and threw them in his lap. He smiled in excitement and I felt his thumb rub my clit. "I want you as bad but we made an obligation" he said as he continued rubbing me and making me feel good.

We got to Monte Casino's underground parking and once he parked the car he kissed me like crazy. I don't ever want this physical connection to end. I hope we'll be this freaky and obsessed with each other till the day we die. Is this me seeking forever in him? I thought to myself as I stopped him, realising I need to take it slow.

We walked out and he held my hand. He locked his all black mustang and checked if it was locked. We walked inside and he took me to Kream. This is my first time coming to Kream. I walked inside with him and the waiter led us to a private corner. We got settled and we sat next to each other and whispered sweet nothings in each others ears.

"How's your mom? Actually tell me about your mom." I asked him and he chuckled. "My mom's name is Nia Magnolia Sage, she's 39 years old but she looks younger. She got me when she was 13 years old, moved this side once she got my younger brother, Jabari, at 18 and since then she's been enjoying life. She's honestly a carefree woman who love her life prioritising peace and harmony." He said and I felt my stomach turn when he mentioned Jabari.

"Babe, I need to tell you something" I said nervously and he looked concerned. "Jabari was my virgin breaker"