Love on the brain

CPR

"Kabelo, foods in the microwave!" We heard Kabelo's mom shout as we were about to connect faces and swim in each other's saliva. He kissed me gently and softly before letting me go. He threw on a shirt and we walked out the room. Oh how I wish we kissed, my body wanted him so badly, I crave deep connection with him and vulnerability.

I checked the time and it was getting late, we watched TV while we ate, only because I there was nothing to be said. "I need to get going" I remind Kabelo as he put the dishes in the dishwasher. I really wanted to bring up his scars but how do I do that? It's such a sensitive topic but I hate that he endures deep pains that make him want to hurt himself. Is it his own issues with identity? Is it family issues? I hate that I'm so helpless right now.

"Bye ma, thank you for everything, the food was delicious!" I said to her making her smile a bit. She cooked a nice, African meal of dumpling and oxtail that had veggies. "She's a great cook, I hope you're a great cook too!" I said to Kabelo as we got into the car. "Yeah cause you're not and I'm the one who'd be cooking if we lived together?"

He imagined that? He thinks of us living together? That's the most cutest thing he said today. We're going far, I can tell and everything that happened in the past should be left in the past because we got each other now and that's all that matters. He held my hand as we drove to my house and he played some Bryson Tiller, classic move. "Pookie, I love you" I said to him, it was the first time but it was the first time in ages! He turned to look at me, he smiled and kissed my hand, "I love you too Brat"

Flashback

Pookie🖤
Sun, 11 Oct 2020

I swear Pookie that guy is obsessed with me! Why would he grab my face and just kiss me? Time his breath stinks😭✋🏼

And you let him?

You know it's not like that! It's actually harassment

It actually is. Show me who it is tomorrow, I need to have a word with him!

No Pookie!

No since he wants to kiss on my Brat like that I should!

Why?

Cause I love you.
Nobody can kiss on you but me!

Pookie🥺 I love you too!

End of Flashback

"Thank you for the day" I said to him before hugging him. "You're welcome" he said as he held my hand and twirled me around before I walked up to the front door. No one was home, that's why he came into the estate but normally I'd tell him to drop me at the gate, I don't want any problems.

That was an amazing day, well spent with my pookie face. I got into the house and went straight to my room. I switched on the lights and I saw all my bags packed, ready to go. I thought about leaving my mom here, I felt sad but it had to be done. At least he has my stepdad, she won't be entirely alone. I know her separation anxiety won't let her win, she'll be calling me ten thousand times a day. I love her that's my mother.

I got a call from Mo and I quickly answered it. "Bestie, UCT accepted me!" I screamed with excitement and joy. My best friend got accepted and I'm so proud of her, she deserves this. The fact that she's studying medicine is what makes me happier. "This calls for a celebration!" I said and she said yes. I got emotional and I cried when I thought about losing her and the distance. "I'm gonna miss you so much best!" I cried and I could feel the comfort through the phone.

My parents came back and they were in a good mood, I can tell they were out celebrating their daughter. I cried and told my mom Mo is going to Cape Town and she comforted me. "That's how life is nana, you have to be apart to grow and you'll eventually get used to it" she said.

I did my night skincare routine while I was on FaceTime with Kabelo. He was chilling in bed watching his series and snacking on Dorito's. "Mo is leaving for Cape Town next week" I said to him and he asked me how I feel. "I'm scared for our friendship, the distance will make things hard because not only was our friendship shaky this year but it might be shaky next year and for the next coming years" I said to him and he comforted me the same way my mom did.

"Now that we're talking about feelings. What happened on your wrist? Where do those scars come from" I ask carefully, making sure I don't overstep or overwhelm him. "I fight demons everyday Brat, it's not easy" he explained and I nodded. "True but you don't have to fight them alone!" I suggested. He shakes his head, "I go to sleep alone every night, alone with my thoughts, I was brought on this Earth alone, I suffer alone and I will die alone" he said nonchalantly.

"Let me in, I beg you Kabelo! I wanna be here for you" I begged. He couldn't even look at me through the screen, I could tell he was tired of being vulnerable. "Okay Brat, I will" he said and I kissed him through the phone.

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Well Done Moagi!
Our sweet baby, Kabelo🥺
What do you think about Kabelo and Naledi's connection at this point?