Like today, I was the only one that went to service. I asked them if they wanted to join me before hanging out, and they all said no.
I felt annoyed at them. How come you're so willing to go out but not willing to do something for Jehovah??
They don't have the goals I do. Neither of them want to pioneer. Nor do LDC or anything else. So they don't care the way I do. I was surprised at my own reaction, cause I realized how much I care about my goals.
So today it felt specially off...
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When Rebecca or Anna, or the English sisters talk to me it feels different because if I wanna go out to service with them they immediately say yes. And if I talk to them, the first thing they ask is how I'm doing spiritually.
I didn't know how much more I relate to them than my other friends, because they're more serious, like me. Like they actually deep talk with me. And they joke but they're balanced. And they don't drink in almost every hang out, like some people... ever since she started dating that guy she drinks more and she doesn't notice it. She got that from him. I don't wanna get used to it.
