But what scares me more than being wrong, is being right.
Like, what if I'm not crazy?
What if that day, the sister had to come and stop us from talking, for a reason?
What if in that instance, Jehovah read both of our minds, and didn't allow us to give each other details that would make us want to know more about the other and go out?
I think, every time that's about to happen, someone ruins it. Or not ruins it but protect us. That's how I see it, because of how observant I am of everything happening around me. Maybe it just isn't our time yet.
That's the thing, with him I always get the feeling of "this isn't finished yet". And that's the same feeling I had with other people in my past, and I would eventually see them again. And every time I'm right. I see him again with no plan of seeing him, he appears.
Like he's meant to be in my path.
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Sometimes I do get the feeling that I'm gonna marry that man.
Call me crazy but things seem to be planned out. Mapped out in a way that in a couple years or maybe a little less, we will meet. And I can't shake that feeling or let it go, it stays and it's an uncomfortable experience. Because if I let the idea go, it's not natural, but then, I let it go for a while... but never completely.
If I'm the only one feeling that, I will regret this... I will regret trying.
But I better don't expect things that I'm not certain off. My success or failure doesn't depend entirely on me, life turns around... if I expect to regret it I will regret it. If I tell myself I'll fail, I'll fail.
But if I'm willing to let my worry go... to just live... I could go far in a good way. If I'm willing to accept what comes with trying, that'll mean I grew up.
So really, all I have to do is let things be.
"Grow up and you'll see, Danna."
- Jehovah
