Thinking of who I'll love gets overwhelming. I would rather erase the problem than create a problem for myself.
I know Jehovah expects me to listen. I could miss out on someone great, from protecting myself. But am I really missing out? Paul said that it's better to be single if you can sustain it. And that's biblical.
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There's a part of me that's afraid of all the what if's. I don't want to love someone to the point they get that much control over my heart. I don't want to love someone like that ever again.
I don't wanna be cheated on either. Or left. I don't know how much I could take if those things happened and I was married. I don't know if I can let myself love a person to the point of trusting them with my whole self either.
I struggle to believe the next person could be different. He would be different for a while but prove me right later.
If I do meet someone he will have to be worth my time. And I won't tolerate anything. He shows me 1 warning sign and I'm done.
I don't care if I become too hard to reach. I'd rather be like that than get hurt again.
