Is he worth it?
His friend says I have no idea of how much he's helped him. That he's a great friend.
It kind of scares me, how many good things he had to say of him, despite the outside rumours.
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I want to know him, truly. I do. I'm scared that he won't want to know me. That I'm wrong, like I always am, and all those coincidences and not coincidences didn't matter to him like they did to me. That it is one sided.
I don't love him nor even care to the extent that I would die if he didn't, but I still care in a way, get it?
I have this idea that I'll always be wrong about whoever I like... that I'll be doomed to have one sided relationships, because of my past. That I won't find a person who will feel the same way I feel for them. And not only feel the same, but someone who also loves with the same intensity, or depth.
