I'm not healed at all. I'm angry, sad and hurt. I can't think of anyone.
Because unlike other people, I don't wanna play with anyone's feelings just because I'm lonely.
I'd rather suck it up.
I'm gonna live still...
What will truly happen is I'll watch my friends get married. I'll be happy for them... I won't wait for my person any longer... I'll think of others.
I'll probably erase this. All of this, for peace of mind... to stop my self-inducing anxiety.
I'll think of Jehovah more... he'll help me calm down because to be honest, I don't see the end...
