I thought I'd be able to work but I really won't focus on work. Not today.
I'll be with my mom instead. I know she's devastated. She needs me. My family needs me. I always help my family, that's my role, to bring them together, to make them stronger. I somehow have the strength they don't have in this situations. Doesn't mean I don't feel anything, just because I'm writing this, but writing helps me cope so this is my space to let it out. Again I won't be making any sense. And I don't right now, but Jehovah is my reminder.
