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hospital garden freak

❀ ʚɞ Adeline ʚɞ ❀

"You kissed me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever."

March 28, 2005

I was furious.
Gerard Gibson was a fucking eejit—a very sexy one—but still an eejit.

He'd flirted with some random girl in front of me and then tried to act like I shouldn't be furious.

He was always toying with my feelings and I'd had enough. He either wanted me or he didn't.

I wasn't going to wait around forever. I'd done enough waiting.

"I'll drop kick his ass if you want," Grace dabbed my tears with a ball of toilet paper, "Just say the words."

"What do I do, Grace?" I sighed, "He will never choose me."

She wrapped her arms around me and shook her head, "Look, I might fuck around a lot and tease Gibsie, but he's a good lad. He might be a fucking eejit and weird as hell but he loves you. You should hear the way he talks about you when you aren't around. I can't make that up, Ads. But I also think you deserve someone who can give you their all."

I hugged her as tight as possible, "I love you."

"I love you more."

Grace was the best friend I could ever ask for. She always knew what to say and more importantly she always had my back.

She grabbed my hand and led me out of the bathroom, only for us to run into Gerard.

Fuck my life.

"I'm going to go," Grace looked between the two of us, "Declan needs to hear more of my life story." She quickly headed in the direction of the cafeteria—where I assumed Declan was still seated.

Once she was out of earshot Gerard gave me a sheepish grin, "So, we should probably talk."

"Oh, you want to talk? About what?" I rolled my eyes, "About how you flirted with that girl right in front of my face?"

"Addy, baby," He looked at me with his grey eyes, "I was only messing."

"Yeah, you're messing with my heart, Gerard," I sniffled, "And I can't take it anymore."

"Addy-"

"No, no!" I shouted, tears falling onto my cheeks, "I'm sick of the games." My voice cracked and I struggled to catch my breath. I bolted towards one of the doors and pushed it open.

It led me outside to one of the gardens at the hospital—obviously for patient use. No one else was in it so I used it as my escape.

But obviously Gerard followed after me.

"Please wait," He grabbed my hand.

"No, I'm fed up," I shook my head, "You sleep in my bed, you tell me you love me, you tell everyone I'm the love of your life, yet you go around flirting with anything that has a vagina."

"Addy, please just let me talk."

"All we do is talk! We keep having the same fucking discussion and nothing changes! You go back to flirting and I go back to feeling like an eejit!" I was fully sobbing now, like a deranged weirdo in the middle of the hospital garden, "If you don't want me then just-"

Gerard shut me up by connecting his lips with mine. Every ounce of anger in my body was replaced with lust. I'd loved this boy since I was ten. I'd been sleeping in bed with him since I was thirteen and now after nearly six years we were kissing.

He was kissing me and I was kissing him. His hands were in my hair and mine were on his face.

I'd never understood the expression 'being lost in a kiss' until this very moment. His lips were warm and inviting and I felt so fucking safe.

His tongue brushed mine and I almost lost it right there at the literal hospital. My head was spinning with pleasure and excitement.

I'd been dreaming of this moment since I was ten years old and here it was happening.
And it was better than I ever imagined.

When the kiss broke, we both looked at each other with flushed cheeks, trying to catch our breath.

"Wow," I breathed, my hands snaking around his neck.

"Yeah, wow is right," He nodded.

"I'm so glad you finally got the balls to do that," I smiled.

"Me too, babe," He grinned, "And speaking of balls, mine are damn near exploding."

"Well, that's one way to ruin the moment," I playfully rolled my eyes.

"That moment could never be ruined," He shook his head, "I mean shit, I've got to give myself props for that."

"Puh-lease," I scoffed, "It was all me! I brought the angst."

"And I brought the kiss."

"I kissed back!"

"But I started it!"

"But I'm pretty!"

"Fine, you win," He laughed, pressing a kiss to the tip of my nose.

"I love you, Gerard," I said and I meant it.

I loved him. I always had and I always would.

"I love you, Adeline," He smiled.

"Does this mean you'll finally stop flirting with other girls?" I sighed, as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and led me back in the building.

"Yes, I'm all yours, Ads," He replied, "And you're all mine. No flirting, no dating, no looking at anyone else."

"I'm so down for that," I grinned.

I finally got Gerard Gibson all to myself.
I finally got him to kiss me.

He was finally mine.

And he'd be mine forever.

Nothing could ever tear us apart.

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it finally happened
i'm giggling

i also changed up how i put music into a chapter idk if anyone noticed or even gives a fuck but i think the one quote is just way cuter

i love you guys

xoxo

-Freyja