Clean

i love you i'm sorry

❀ ʚɞ Adeline ʚɞ ❀

"I told the truth, oh, but you didn't like it"

March 19, 2005

I was sick of myself, and everyone else. My brother had just won another rugby game so the team was over to celebrate, which was most definitely not my choice. It was hard enough avoiding Gerard but now Stephan was in my fucking house.

The minute I heard the front door open and the teams voices, I sprinted upstairs to hide. I had also sent Grace down to the party so she couldn't tell I was freaked out. I was terrified of Stephan and now he was in the place I should feel most safe.

A knock on my bedroom door made me jump.

"Hello?" I called out, the door knob jiggling against the lock.

"Addy, it's me," Declan's voice came from outside.

I crawled out of bed and swung open my bedroom door to allow my twin brother to step into the room.

"What are you doing hiding up here?" He frowned.

"I'm not feeling well, I just wanted some quiet," I shrugged.

It wasn't entirely a lie. I felt like shit due to my lack of sleep.

He eyed me but nodded, "Okay, I'll be out of here soon. I just want to show Hugh the picture of us on the pitch at Finerty."

"Oh," I nodded, reaching for my phone and handing it to him, "It's in my camera roll somewhere."

"Got it," He took my phone and began scrolling, sinking onto my desk chair.

I hummed to myself, waiting for him to find it and run down to Hugh, but instead he froze, staring at the screen.

"Adeline, what is this?" He asked, his expression dark.

"What?" I felt my heart drop.

He turned the screen towards me and I felt bile rise in my throat. The pictures I'd taken after the rape. The pictures of my wrists lined with bruises, my thighs covered in blood and bruises, my neck with bruises.

"I-," No words were leaving my mouth.

"Adeline," He stood up, "What am I looking at?"

"Declan..."

"This is why you've been acting weird," He blinked rapidly, "Did someone...hurt you?"

I forced myself to be honest, "Yes."

His eyes filled with tears, and he shook his head.

"Fuck," He choked out, "Did they...um, Addy what did they do?"

Taking the longest breath of my life, I whispered, "I was raped."

Declan's expression turned to something I'd never seen before. He looked devastated but terrifying all at once.

"Fuck!" He shouted, pacing the room, "I'll fucking kill him."

"Declan," I was sobbing.

He was running is hands through his hair and then he was wrapping his arms around me.

He stayed hugging me for a moment before pulling back from me, with anger clouding his eyes.

"Who?" His words made me shiver.