Oh yes,Oh no

66. I know...

Jenny's POV

I told Hoseokie that I had an audition to go to and left the house to go buy a bunch of pregnancy tests and hid them all in my handbag. They say that the morning urine is the best for testing, so I've been holding it in since the morning.

I then went to the closest restaurant, booked a table and and rushed to the bathroom, closed the door behind myself, and locked the door.  Took out the test cup and  peeped inside,then finished the rest in the toilet pot

Then I dipped all ten sticks on the urine and laid them down flat on the floor. Then I wiped and flushed the toilet. And waited,gosh, this is excruciating.

My phone rang, and I almost let it fall out of my hands because my hands were shaking

Jen:" Hey Tae,

Tae:" Hey Jenny ,uhm, I wanted to ask you if we could meet up for lunch

Jen:" uhm,today is not a good day.

Tae:" Oh,okay,uhm

Jen:" Are you okay?

Tae:" Yes,I just wanted to talk to you about something, but it can wait till later tonight

Jen:"  Okay,bye-bye, talk later

I ended the call and squaded down to check the tests, and all of them were positive. They are all fucking positive.  No way,no fucking way. This is not happening

Jen:" Noooo,no fucking way.

My hands are trembling, but I picked them all up and put them in the dustbin.And then I went out and washed my face and took a deep breath and calmed myself down. I composed myself  and went out of the bathroom.

I didn't even stay at the restaurant, and I am so glad that I am dressed down, and wearing a mask,and a cap,and without bodyguards.

I took a cab to the abortion clinic.  I am not going to wait around, or I might start to bonding with it and that's the last thing that I want.

I am really careful to not get recognized. I have to get this done today.I stepped inside and the receptionist welcomed me and gave me a sheet to answer. There are only two girls there,now three with me.

Jen:" Do I really have to fill this out? I don't want anything to be traced back to me please. It's important that this is private

Her:" Oh,okay, please follow me

She took me to the backroom and knocked on the door. A lady told her to come in and she took me inside

Her:" She requested for privacy,

Jen:" Please,this is urgent.

Doc:" Please have a seat.

Jen:" I don't want to go back home pregnant. I need this out today .Please.

Doc:" I still have to ask you some questions? Is someone forcing you to have an abortion?

Jen:" No,I came here out of my own free will.

Doc:" How far along are you?

Jen:" Does it really matter?

Doc:" Yes,it does.

I told her the date I was inseminated .The funny thing is that I haven't missed my period. I got the regular, shitty,crampy ,and painful periods. So how the fuck would I be pregnant ?

Doc:" Just to be sure,I have to take a look. So that I can give you the best treatment.

I got on the bed and lifted my shirt up.But she told me to remove my Jean and to get on the bed, and put my legs on the separators.  I did it because I've done  it so many times for my papsmear, and that's how they put this into me.