Oh yes,Oh no

7. Advice..

JK's POV

My feelings for Taehyung go deeper than the physical aspects of it. I know that I have a lot of work to do before he hopefully agrees to be with me.

There is no denying that there is so much that I need to do for him to trust me, but how do I do that? I am a 28 year old gay man,and I am not even open to my parents. Shouldn't parents know that their kids are gay or lesbian already or bisexual? It would be so much easier to open up to them.

I am always so envious of the people who are openly living their lives and the families who support and stand by them. It would've probably been easier for me to tell my parents about who I really am if they didn't spew so much hate on the Lgbtg+ community. 

Anyway, I am on my way to go have lunch with my brother, I know what he wants to talk about, and I also need his advice on a couple of things. I've sent new contracts to Tae,Soo-hyun, and Mark. I am trying to give Tae the space that he asked for. It will probably be just for this week,only because I am going to be super busy . It's a beautiful and peaceful Monday. I'm just gloomy because I won't be seeing him this week

I arrived at the restaurant where he was already waiting for me and walked up to him and took a seat opposite him.

Jk:" You look mighty fine,skin glowing. How are you,hyung?

Jin:" Yes,I am happy. I am glad it shows. How are things with you and Tae going

Jk:" Getting straight into it,I see

Jin:" What can I say? I am curious

Jk:" He is still reluctant. If I am being honest, I think he's scared that his freedom will go away. And that everyone will be in his business .

Jin:" What exactly do you want from him?

Jk:" A chance to show him that I am not just crushing on him but that I really like him and want him.

Jin:" Okay,so he leaves his boyfriend for you and then what? As far as you've told me,Tae was always out and open,him being with you will mean that he has to go back in the closet ,secret dinners,secret vacations, love in the dark type of relationship. 

Jk:" Isn't that the same for you? Namjoons family knows about the two of you and supports it. You, on the other hand,won't tell mom and dad about him. It's been three years already.

Jin:" I do want to tell them about him. He's the one who wants us to wait.

Jk:" I know that mom and dad are going to retaliate and disown us. We are going to lose everything that we worked so hard for

Jin:" I would give it all up for Nam

Jk:" I would do it for Tae too. Having Suga come and take over everything we've worked so hard for also kisses me off. I want to tell mom and dad about my sexuality before they push the marriage and kids' agenda further down my throat

Jin:" They are already pushing the engagement. Her parents are coming down next week. How are you going to handle that?

Jk:" Ahhhh, I am stressed out about it. If Tae hears about it, I might as well kiss any chance of him being with me. I've never felt this way about anyone before. I am crazy about him.

Jin:" I know,he's all you've ever mentioned to me. Are you done with the house yet.

Jk:" Yes, it's been done for about a year. You're the only one who knows about it apart from Mei.

Jin:" I know,I really want to see it.

Jk:" You know who will be the first person to set foot there? He told me to stay away for a while. He has things to work through, and I also have to end things with Jimin