Oh yes,Oh no

55.The wait..

JK's POV

I've never felt so lonely in my life before. I always had Jin hyung to talk to or cry with. I haven't heard from him just yet,and I am worried about him. I also don't know what to tell Namjoon because as much as the story is tragic, it's not my place to tell him.

I didn't want to worry, Tae,so I called him back, and we spoke. He tried his best to make me feel better,and he did for a while. I would've given anything for him to be back home,but as hard as it is,I don't want him or my kids around this negative energy.

I woke up with a headache, or is it a hangover? I did drink alone last night. My mind kept spinning ,letting my mom's words echo in my mind. I'm angry and hurt, and I have no one to share it with. Well I do but I fucked that up and I don't want to stress him out even more.

I turned over on my side in the bed to his side, putting my hand under his pillow just like I always do.This bed is huge without him by my side. It's 6 am ,I know that he's still asleep but I want to call him. I want to speak to him before I start my day off.

My dad called me nonstop last night,and he also probably told Suga to call me and try to talk me out of leasing their house,but no sir. I've given them one too many chances and they kept fucking up. It's half their fault that Tae isn't back home with me ,in bed besides me

I want to turn the hands of time back,all the signs that I've missed. How oblivious I was in ignoring the signs that were right infront of me.

Jk:" Fuck!

When I find you Andrew, I am going to send you to meet your maker. I thought I could trust you,but you sold your soul for money. I could've helped you out.

My phone rings, it's flashing  Mine ❤️,that's Tae.  Is something wrong? Why is he calling me so early? I rushed to answer

Jk:" Tae,baby is everything okay?

Tae;" No (sniffing) your kids are being mean again

Jk:" Nausea? What can I do baby?

Tae;"  I don't know, just talk to them or something

Jk:" Come back home already,please.  We can still be on a break while you're here

Tae:" No ,not yet. I still need some time

Jk:" I want to be there for you,I want to sit next to you in the bathroom and massage your back,hold your hair out the face and talk you through it

Tae;" Hold on

I hear him throwing up and flashing the toilet. Rinse his mouth out and got back to me

Tae:" I thought that it was getting better.

Jk:" I am missing out on a lot. We are never going to get this time again,well maybe in the future

Tae:" Do you want me to smack you? We are having twins Mr Jeon  ,just incase you forgot

Jk:" I want four ,as soon as these two turn two,we will try again

Click......he just hung up on me. I called him back immediately and he answered.

Tae:" Only two ,got it?

Jk:"  Okay okay, I am sorry that you're feeling like this

Tae:" The first trimester is the toughest one of them all.

Jk:" I am going to read up on it. Do my own research.

Tae:" Okay,how are you?

Jk:" I am talking to you,so I am fine.