Origins of Olympus oneshot ships

Worthless Existence

✨Depression✨

They couldn't sleep

Everything was just..empty. Nothing to find, nothing to look for.
Why did it feel so weird, being numb
It's like you could feel the pain but couldn't at the same time.

It was a pattern in Lotus head.
The moment they heard their family chatter and all being happy and glowing, they wanted to join.
Be part of their hearts.

But anytime they tried to join in, have a piece of that glowing radiant happiness, it all goes..

Quiet.

Silent.

Like nothing.

Only their dad really pay attention, but he did that for everyone. It's like Lotus killed or dimmed the mood anytime they comes in.

What would happen if they did just stay out of the way?
What if they just decided to live in one of the cabins so the rest of their family could rest and be happy

The loneliness would hurt but, it's what's best for others, not them.

Lotus always had to put others before themself, Baba, dad, Atlas, Femi, Auncle Magnus, Uncle Solis, Grandpa Xylo.
They matter more.

Lotus understood that their other siblings, especially Atlas needed more assurance and support then they needed.

Atlas dealt with his lack of communication and self worth, his inability to love himself didn't help either.

Femi was the smartest, the one who would most likely succeed considering her intense IQ in her studies, she'd be the greatest, so she needed constant attention in order to better herself.

Lotus, however...
They had no purpose.
They could really ever cook but, anyone can cook.
Plus, they were sure if Baba had to choose between Lotus dishes and dads, he'd take his dads

"Sorry Lotus, but I'm sure it's delicious, we'll have it tomorrow, I promise."
He forgot that.

The food went to waste, and Baba forgot Lotus loved cooking.

Lotus often thought if they just stopped cooking, it'll hurt less. But they couldn't.

Besides that, Lotus couldn't hate their dad, their perfect beautiful dad. After all, their dad suffered more than Lotus did. They didn't have a right to put their dads suffering and trauma aside for Lotus.

Their dad suffered the worst.

And that'll always be the case.'

All these horrible thoughts, hating their family yet hating themself for hating them. Sometimes they wished King Mitch finished the job, then they'd  stop being the "unfortunate" one in the family.

But that's selfish.

How could Lotus think that

Did they care about their family at all?

Lotus sighed, trying to fall asleep in order to keep those horrid thoughts out. They wished that maybe someone will notice their pain and try to distract them. Since that seems to be the only way for them to stop thinking.

They wanted their head, their fake, unreal head, to break.

(Angst shit, idk. Plus, it was so fucking irritating that I kept misgendering this guy, so if you see a he instead of a they then I'm sorry.)