Tayvis One-Shots

letters to the lost

26 January

Taylor,

It's been 22 days. 22 days since I've heard your laugh or felt your hand in mine. The house feels so big without you, so empty. Your favorite mug is still sitting on the counter because I can't bring myself to wash it. I keep thinking if I don't, maybe some part of you will linger a little longer.

I went to our spot by the lake today. You loved the way the sunlight hit the water, always saying it looked like gold. It just looks gray to me now.

I hope you're okay, wherever you are. I hope it's beautiful there. I miss you so much it hurts, Tay.

Love,
Travis

18 February

Hey Tay,

I tried cooking your spaghetti recipe tonight. Remember how you always teased me for never getting the sauce just right? Well, I messed it up again. I didn't even chop the garlic finely enough, you'd have laughed so hard at the mess I made. I ended up eating cereal instead.

Jason stopped by with the kids. They were asking for you. I told them you were a star now, shining bright in the sky. Ellie said she thinks you're the biggest one. I told her she's absolutely right.

I still sleep on my side of the bed, you know. Like you're going to come back and need your space. I think that's the hardest part. Knowing you won't.

Yours always,
Travis

14 March

Tay,

Happy anniversary, my love. Ten years ago today, you walked into my life, and nothing was ever the same. I can still see you in that dress, the way you smiled at me like I was the only person in the room.

I went through the box of letters we wrote when we were long distance. Do you remember? You used to draw little hearts on the envelope corners and slip song lyrics into your notes. I found one that said, "You are the best thing that's ever been mine." I sobbed like a baby when I read that.

I love you, Tay. I loved you then, I love you now, and I'll love you for the rest of my life.

Forever yours,
Travis

22 May

Taylor,

I'm starting to forget the sound of your voice. That scares me. I watch old videos of us just to hear you laugh again. I've even started talking to the recordings, like you're there, like you can hear me. Is that crazy?

The garden is blooming. Your daisies came in first, and the lavender's just starting. I sat outside tonight, and for a moment, I swear I felt you there. The breeze smelled like lavender and summer, and it felt like you were trying to tell me something.

I miss you so much it feels like I can't breathe sometimes. But I'm trying. For you.

Love always,
Travis

3 August

Hey Tay,

I wore the bracelet you made me today. Remember that silly craft night we had? Yours turned out perfect, of course, and mine looked like it was done by a five-year-old. But you made me promise to wear it anyway, and I did, just for you.