Loki Laufeyson - Saviour {2}

Chapter Seventy Three - Do You Realise How Messed Up I Am?

WARNING: Talks of 18+ topics

"Did he trigger anything?" Loki's tone tensed a little. "Does HYDRA know of the break in?"

My whole body locked up as I heard HYDRA's name and I immediately dropped my hand from the handle. I knew it was very rude to be listening into conversations, but if it was anything to do with HYDRA, it was kind of related to me.

"They haven't shown any indication." Thor replied. "Tony is the best there is. He will be able to find Emily's base."

"I know." Loki sighed.

There was a pause for a couple of seconds, my heart pounding in my chest.

"Have you told her yet?" Thor's voice was softer.

"No." Loki's voice turned sharper. "Stop nagging me. I know I have to, but... I just can't."

My heart dropped at the words. Loki was keeping something from me? Was it about HYDRA? Or was it about something else? That pause between conversations could have meant that they changed topics. I tried to believe that he would have a good reason for keeping something from me, but it also felt... wrong in a way. He knew basically everything about me and now he was keeping something from me. I knew I shouldn't feel like this, everyone had every right to keep their own secrets, but between me and Loki, it felt... wrong.

"She deserves to know." Thor pushed. "And you want her to find out the right way. We don't want to hurt her. Especially you."

My stomach soured at the implication of me being hurt. Maybe this secret wasn't such a good one to keep then, if it was possibly going to hurt me. Then why would he keep it from me? Surely he wouldn't want me hurt...

"I know." Loki repeated again. "But I can't."

I took a deep breath, wanting to make this easier for him but also get it off my mind before the worry spiraled any more.

"Tell me what?" I hated how soft my voice came out, like I was timid and scared.

"Darling, what are you doing awake?" I didn't miss how startled Loki looked.

"Tell me what?" I repeated again, Thor shifting nervously in the corner of my eye.

"Darling." He sighed, shooting a look to Thor before he turned back to me. "Look, how about we go back into the room and we can talk about it, okay?"

"Okay." I replied after a moment's hesitation, looking back up at Thor and managing a weak smile. "Nice to see you again."

He dipped his head and offered me a small smile back, but I could see the worry in his eyes and I hated how it made my stomach churn. I walked back to our room and after a couple of moments, Loki followed behind. The door clicked shut behind him and I moved into the middle of the room before I slowly turned around and looked at him.

"The Avengers are planning an attack on HYDRA while you're away." He said it almost as immediately as our eyes connected. "I haven't told you because I didn't want to worry you."

The subtle hint of anger that had been churning in my stomach quickly disappeared as my heart lost its grip in my chest and plummeted to the ground. I could feel my throat tightened as fear completely swamped me.

"What?" I breathed, my eyes widening. "No. No they can't. Not against HYDRA. They'll get themselves killed. They can't."

"Em, they're the Avengers." He stepped forward instantly to soothe me, taking my trembling hands in his and gently rubbing his thumb over them. "They are more than capable."

"HYDRA is worse than any of you know." I shook my head rapidly, pulling my hands away and clutching them to my chest. "They can't defeat them. HYDRA will kill them all. I know it." I paused and slowly looked up at him again. "Wait... is this why you wanted me to come to Asgard? So everyone could go behind my back and launch an attack on HYDRA?"