Loki Laufeyson - Saviour {2}

Chapter Thirty Four - Am I a Monster?

His lips were cold, enough that they shocked me a little. His hands drifted to the back of my neck, pulling me closer to him gently. My hands hung loosely by my side, my mind buzzing too much to process what I should do them.

Then the flashbacks hit.

Their hands were roaming over my dress, dipping under it through the slit on my leg. Their breaths panted on my neck, their tongues roaming over my neck, their teeth digging into my skin. My eyes flew open and I found myself in the HYDRA rooms, my back pressed to the wall as the invisible hands tore at my dress, reducing it to shreds. I tried to shove them away, but more hands just replaced the ones I pushed away. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I tried to scream out for help, but their hands covered my mouth and nose, stopping my screams, suffocating me.

I stumbled away from the hands, the HYDRA room suddenly disappearing and being replaced with the balcony. Cold air hit my lips as I pulled away from Loki's lips, tears dribbling down my cheeks as my chest heaved with rapid breaths. My eyes darted around frantically as I looked around, looking for any signs of HYDRA, but all I could see in front of me was Loki, his green eyes scanning over my face worriedly.

"Emily?" He took a cautious step towards me but I only stepped back, stumbling in the heels. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

I blinked rapidly, the outside of the compound swarming and twisting with flashes of the room back at HYDRA. Loki's face wrapped, blending into Strucker's face, a twisted smirk on his lips.

"Don't touch me." I rasped as his hand reached out to touch me.

As I blinked rapidly again, his face flickered back to normal, hurt and worry sparking in his eyes. I lurched towards the entry back into the compound and desperately pushed open the glass door, wincing at the loud music that suddenly hit me, making my ear drums pound. I stumbled through the crowd, beginning to feel my chest constricting as everyone's twisted and morphed into the face of HYDRA agent's before shifting back as they looked at me with annoyance. My ears rung and I felt sweat pouring down my face, paired with my salty tears.

"Hey Emily!" Called a voice. "Want another game of pool?"

I spun around, stumbling unsteadily to see Bucky and Steve waving me over. Bucky's face immediately shifted to the Winter Soldier's face with his mask and goggles. I almost fell backwards, my back hitting someone else's, but I staggered away before they could say anything. I could feel the walls pushing in on me, suffocating me, the music pounding in my head, my heart straining to get free. My throat began to tighten, my lungs constricting to the point where I was gasping for air. My vision turned blurry from my tears and I began to shove people out of the way, not caring what they said. I had to get away before I vomited or collapsed, or most likely both.

One of the people I pushed aside turned around to look at me and I saw that it was Nat.

"Hey Emily." She grinned at me. "Where are you going?"

Her grinned immediately dropped when she saw my face, turned away completely from the person she was having a conversation with.

"Wait, Emily, come back!" She tried to call out again, her voice almost lost in the drumming music.

I disappeared back into the crowd, crashing into a waiter, sending glasses crashing to the floor. The sound immediately pierced through my head, causing me to winced as they suddenly began to sound like gunshots. I could faintly hear Nat calling after me, paired with the mutters of annoyance from people in the crowd as she no doubt pushed them out of the way to try and get to me. I didn't stop, barely any air in my lungs to the point where there darkness beginning to appear at the edges of my eyes. I knew I should stop, I wouldn't be able to get anywhere much longer, but the staircase up to the rooms was visible.