My Sister's Boyfriend (Still Editing)

Chapter 28: So Sorry

(EDITED)

Nice to see you too." Jason says sarcastically.

"I thought you hated me" I respond trying to sit up on the bed.

"I will never hate you. I'm just..." he trails off and looks over to the opposite side if the room. "Do you know where your sister is? I came to see her but found you passed out, drunk in the bathtub."

"I was having some 'me' time." I tell him he looks down at me and raises his eyebrows. "Shut up!"

"I didn't say anything!" He flails his arms.

"I know what you we're thinking. We.." I stop what I'm saying. I really don't want to think about it. I want to be passed all this. I don't think I can get passed it without asking him at least 3 questions. "Question?" I ask.

"Yeah go ahead. It can't be any weirder than what already happened."

"Do you still love me?" I ask looking down. He stays silent.

"Yeah. I never stopped." He confesses. I feel like my heart just burst open into a million pieces. He still loves me! I can just feel my cheeks getting red. "Do you?" He asks me.

I don't know what to say. I can't say that I do,  I feel really bad for what I did, but the long distance thing for us kind of lead my heart somewhere else. Maybe I do love Jason. If he we're to push me up against this bed and say 'I love you' in the process,  would I say it back? I do love Jason, but-- but my ass. I love him, just say that.

"Yeah. I never stopped." I repeat.

"Then why did you do it?"

"I don't know. It just kind of happened. Just like you, I, wasn't suppose to have sex with you but it just kind of happened. I had a boyfriend, who I liked. Then you came, I liked Jeremy, but I love you. It kills me when Brianna tells me the things you did." I start to tear up. " I want to be with you. I don't even know what happened with John, I thought it was just some play date. It really meant nothing. He just came over m-" he interrups me by kissing me. His soft lips on mine.  I lean back and he comes with me. he moves his gentle hands up my long shirt peeling it off, still kissing me.

Can I do this? It this how we get together? What am I some booty call lover? No, I'm his first love, that has to mean something to him.

"I've been waiting so long." He says leaning in to kiss my neck. "I love you so mu-"

"Jason, is this right?" I push him back.

" Vicki, I don't know what went on between you and that guy, but I just want to get passed it. I'm not sure if you have feelings for him, but I have feelings for you."

"I don't have feelings for him. I love you. Its just, aren't we going fast. Do you even forgive me?"

"If I didn't forgive you, would I tell you I love you?  Would I kiss you like I just did? Of course I forgive you. If it was just a mistake, I get it, I guess. I really want to just pass it." He leans back in kissing me again. I don't stop him this time, but I don't encourage him either. I just lay there, with Jason on top of me. 

"Could we not do this now?" I ask pushing him back . "I need some time to still process all of this. My mind is so confused and I really don't know where I'm at right now. I'm just lost and I need some time to get back on my feet. Ill text you later though." I tell him. I put my shirt back on and go get some shorts from the closet. Jason is still sitting there, like if he was rethinking his decision on me. I seriously need to get my shit in order.

 Do I love Jason? Like, really love him, just how I did before or am I pretending to like him? He confessed he loved me, I said it back, but do I mean it?

"Okay." Jason gets up and leaves. "Call me back when Brianna gets here."

I love him. No I don't.  Of course I do. Am I sure? Mine as well grab a flower from outside and pick it's pendals. I should turn blond and be one of those clueless girls, I never actually saw the movie, but blonds are always clueless.

Or at least it's a stereotype.