The Zone {bellarke fanfiction}

my way

Chapter Twenty-Eight:
MY WAY

CLARKE'S POV:

I'm getting better. After a month of therapy and doctors appointments, I'm finally back to normal. Bellamy by my side, and preparations for our wedding begun, nothing could be better. Looking through pictures and making decisions for our wedding, distracts me from thinking negatively about the baby. Painting and learning during class is a peaceful break, and long, quiet nights with Bellamy are all a girl needs to be okay.

I lay in front of the tv on the couch, Bellamy's fingers running through my hair. I slowly fall asleep, my head falling.

Bellamy asks," Want some cake babe?"

" Sure," I mumble. He carefully leaves the couch, laying me back on a pillow. I curl up, closing my eyes until he returns.

He touches my arm," Baby...are you sleepy?"

I slowly nod," Mhm."

He laughs, and I hear him set the plates on the table. He cautiously picks me up, and carries me to our bedroom. I kiss his neck a couple times and he chuckles," Hey, hey, watch it, babe."

I giggle to myself as he lays me down. I grab ahold of his shirt, and pull him close.

" Clarke, it's too soon," he says, shaking his head and lowering my hand.

I frowned, looking away for a moment. Bellamy sits down next to me, beginning to say something, but I cut him off," Will we ever try again? Maybe after we're married, but will we ever try again?"

He looks down, and closes his eyes. He breathes, and meets my gaze. He cups my cheek, his touch reassuring me. " The doctor said it would be difficult, Clarke. It would be very strenuous and complicated."

" But women have had babies after a miscarriage-"

"-Not without risky their own lives." He says, with a glare. " I wouldn't be able to carry on with a little you, without you."

I shook my head," It doesn't have to be like that, we could try and watch out for all the precautions, we could have a baby, Bellamy. Don't worry about me!"

" Don't worry about you? Don't worry about you! Clarke! I'm not going to loose you just so we can have a baby, there's other ways."

" I don't like those other ways," I say, shaking my head.

" This isn't even a discussion, we're not putting any baby's life over yours. I don't want to hear it again." He rose quickly to his feet.

" Bellamy, this isn't your final decision!"

" The doctor said it would be awhile, and we shouldn't try before we're ready, Clarke."

" We weren't ready before, and yet it happened."

He lowered his head, his hands on his hips," We weren't ready before, no, but we were going to be ready when it came."

" When the baby came, Bellamy, say it."

" We're too young for this, Clarke. Fresh out of high school, and not even legally allowed to drink. We shouldn't be allowed to talk about kids."

" I want to have a baby."

He laughs," Talk to me in a couple years, babe. I'm nowhere near ready." He walked towards me, kissing my head," You're my only baby right now, okay? Goodnight."

" I feel like you're my dad, putting me to sleep," I whined.

He laughed," I love you, sweetie."

I made a sick face," Don't ever do that again," I laughed.

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Is this foreshadowing anything? No? Aw man

Couple chapters left!!!!!!! Aren't you excited/sad! I know I am! Probably my last fanfiction, for awhile at least! School is coming up, and I definitely need to focus on that this year. It's VERY important I'm getting good grades, so don't freak out & be upset! I'll still be around!

I LOVE YOU ALL SO SO MUCH! XOXO lanie