Always the Bestfriend, Never the Boyfriend (Cameron Dallas)

[42] Cambalz

- Cameron's POV-

I couldn't fall asleep.

Because I was thinking about the many mistakes I've made in my life, and also because a certain baby would NOT stop crying.

Paty and Maddie slept in the guest room and Day was sleeping with me. I had my old crib in the attic so I brought it down and set it up for Dallas.

"I'll get him," Day said, sitting up for the 7th time that night.

"No, stay in bed. I've got him." I said, getting out of bed. I walked down my hallway and picked Dallas up out of the crib. "Hey there, little fella."

I rocked him back and forth, murmuring small comments. "Please go to sleep, I love you but I'm tired."

I eventually sat down it the rocking chair. Dallas stopped crying and looked at me. His baby browns looking at me, oddly. It looked and felt like he was... judging me. I stared back at him, as I lowered my face to kiss his forehead. As soon as I lowered my head, his mouth opened and he literally bit my nose. Not that hard, of course, he didn't have teeth, but still. I was startled.

I heard a soft chuckle and I looked at the door way.

"He bit you," Day smiled.

"Yeah, he did."

"I got a picture."

"What? Why?"

"Well, him and I have so many pictures together," She paused, "I wanted him to have some with his daddy."

"I don't deserve to be his dad."

"What?" Day was startled. "What did you just say?"

"Come on, Day. Look at me, I'd be a horrible dad. A horrible example. I'm not right for this. You know who is? Jay. He would've been better for you, hell even Ryan would have been better for you. Anyone but me."

"But Cameron-"

"No. Don't try to make me feel better. I don't deserve your pity either. I deserve nothing. You should stay away from me. Anyone but me, Day."

"Cameron, shut up."

"What?"

"I didn't want anyone, but you. I trust you. Why do you think I gave YOU my virginity? Not Jay, not even Ryan. I gave it to YOU. Stop doubting yourself, Cam."

I stared at Dallas, who was still in my arms. Maybe I didn't deserve him, but Day was right. If she trusts me, then I should trust myself.

"Come here," Day said, taking Dallas from me and putting him in the crib. She wrapped me up in a hug. "We can get through this. Right? I mean, how hard is it to take care of a baby? Our parents did it, twice! And we can too."

"Twice?" I raised my eyebrows at her.

Day looked me straight in the eye. "If we have to, Cambalz, only if we have to."

And so I kissed her.