On my own a The Secret Life of the American teenager fanfiction story

on my own part 28

Chapter 26 mother, son reunion part 2

Amy's POV

I am excited, nervous, and scared all at the same time. I can't wait to see John but I'm worried. I'm pretty sure Ricky already hates me and I don't even know if John remembers me let alone likes me. I feel so guilty for what happened. I feel so guilty for what I did to him. I can't believe I abandoned my son. I guess I just have to keep telling myself that at the time I did what I thought was right, at the time I did what I thought was best for both of us. I made my way to the couch while dragging my oxygen machine with me. I sat down and just stared out at the window. Just then my mom came into the room. What's wrong honey? She asked me as she came over and sat beside me. What if John does remember me? What if John doesn't forgive me? I asked her. Oh Amy John is only 5 month old. He won't remember not having contact with you during this time in his life when he's older my mom said. He won't have anything to forgive you about because he won't be upset with you she told me. As far as remembering you don't worry about. A mother's connection with her child is an extremely strong bond. Even if he is fussy at first he will warm up to you. John will remember you I promise my mom told me. Thanks mom I really needed to hear that I said. Anytime Amy anytime she said.

Ricky's pov

I quickly get John safely buckled in his car seat. As I start to drive to Amy's house I can't help but feel nervous to see her. I still can't believe she did what she did to our son. Every time I look into his eyes that question crosses my mind. Today I hope to find out the answer I have been wondering about for so long. I looked through the rear view mirror to make sure that John was alright. I saw that he was fast asleep and smiled up at him. When I finally pulled up to the driveway of Amy house my nerves took over. Why am i nervous? I asked myself. Is it because I'm worried about how she has been doing as far as for having cancer goes? Is it because I can't forgive her for leaving me with John? Is it because John might not remember her or like her? Is it because he might be upset with me for some unknown reason? What am I saying? Amy has absolutely no right she be upset with me about anything. Me on the other hand, well I have every right to be upset with her for what she did to our son. I undo my seatbelt and turn off the car. I take a deep breath and look up at John still sleeping. I am doing this for you John I whisper. I get out of the car and go around the back seat to get him. It's just daddy I said. I'm sorry I woke you up buddy come on it's time to go see your mommy I told him as he started to get fussy. I quickly lifted him out of the car seat and grab the diaper bag. Come on buddy let's go I told him. Once he was in the comfort of my arms it mediately collapsed his head on my shoulder and continued crying. When I got up to the front door I took a few moments to get John calmed down before I knocked on the door. I started swaying side to side with John in my arms. It's alright buddy, daddy's here, just relax I told him. Then I pressed the button to ring the doorbell. A few moments later Ashley came to the door. Oh my god!! I can't believe it!! I can't believe you're actually here! I can't believe you actually came when you said you were going to come. I thought amy was lying to me or maybe that you lied to Amy when you texted her ashley said. No!! I didn't lie to Amy about coming over to see her!! And she didn't lie to you about me coming over here. Why would she tell you that? Why the hell would I do that to her? Why the hell would I lie to her like that? I asked her. Alright , alright calm down she told me. Fine! I said. Come in she said gesturing with her hand. Thank you I said. John has gotten so big! Ashley said sweetly. Yeah I guess he has since the last time you saw him I said. Ashley who is at the door? I heard a somewhat familiar voice ask. Mom its Ricky, he is here with John Ashley tells her mother. A moment later Mrs Jergens appears from the hallway. Oh hello Ricky it's so good to see you she said. It's good to see you too Mrs Jergens I said. Oh please Ricky you are part of the family now. Call me Ann she told me. Alright then I said. Hi John she said while coming towards me. John do you remember grandma and aunt Ashley? I asked him. He just turned his head away and started crying again. I'm so sorry I said. He's just shy and fussy. He fell asleep on our way over here and he just woke up before we came inside I explained to them. It's alright we understand Ann reassured me. Ashley give me a favor and go help Amy inside the house. I need to speak with Ricky alone she said. Alright mom ashley said and then left the room before I could ask what was going on. Ricky please come in, sit down, make yourself at home she said. Alright thank you I said as I went to the living room. I set the paper bag on the coffee table and sat down on the couch with John in my lap. Ann sat down across from me on a chair. Ricky you have to understand that a lot has changed since you have last seen Amy she began. She already told me that she had been diagnosed with cancer if that's what you mean I said. Well yes you're right she has been diagnosed with cancer she said. You see things have gotten much worse since the last time you saw her she said. What do you mean worst? She told me she only had six months to live. How much worse can things get? I asked. Excuse me? Ann said. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean anything by that I reassured her. It's alright Ricky she said. To be completely honest with you when the doctor said that to us I had exactly the same reaction if you did she said. The cancer has spread to her lungs she told me. She is now completely dependent on an oxygen machine she said. Oh my god I'm so sorry I said. I just thought you should know before you saw her she said. I didn't want you to be too surprised or shocked when you saw her she told me. I understand your concern. Thank you for telling me I said. Just then Amy came into the room. On either side of her stood Mr Jergens and Ashley. There was a moment of silence in the room. All that could be heard was the sounds of John's crying. Ashley and Mr Jergens assisted Amy onto a chair. Amy looked quite different from the last time I saw her. Her hair was much shorter and she looked like she had lost a lot of weight. We will leave you to alone to talk. Let us know if you need anything Ann told us as everyone else left the room. Okay mom we will Amy said . And then there were three I silently thought to myself.