On my own a The Secret Life of the American teenager fanfiction story

On my own part 2

Chapter 2 doing my best

Ricky pov

Oh my god! I can't believe what just happened . Did Amy seriously just do that? I ask myself. She just abandoned our newborn son . What the hell am I going to do? I mean I'm obviously going to take care of him and do the best I can for him but John still needs his  mother in his life . As all these things run through my head.  John's cries snap me out of my thoughts . "Okay buddy it's okay daddy's right here for you" I say to him. "Don't worry little man I'll take care of you . I pick up the diaper bag from the floor and then lock the door.  "Alright buddy let's get you something to eat."  I told him. Thank God I already have all of the baby care stuff already set up . I bring him to baby swing into the kitchen . As I am singing to John to try to help him calm down I quickly realize that he needs a diaper change. "Alright buddy daddy will get you changed" I say to him. On my way to the nursery that I have set up for him I sing to him in an attempt to keep him as calm and happy as possible considering the circumstances . I continue to sing to him while I am changing him . After I finish getting him  changed to no surprise as mine he is still extremely fussy . "I know little man you want mommy" I say to him. I walked in the kitchen and gently put him down and his swing . "I know that you're hungry" I say to him. "Daddy will get you a bottle to eat ." I grabbed a fresh bottle from the refrigerator and set it on the table . I grab a blanket from the couch. I carefully lifted John up from his swing and into my arms. I wrap him up in a blanket so that he feels both safe and warm ." I know, I know"I say to him. "Alright John daddy is going to feed you ." I cradle him in my arms and grab the bottle from the table . I take him back into the nursery where I have a rocking chair set up . "Alright buddy are you hungry?" I asked him. I sit down and the rocking chair and place him in my lap . John continues to cry . As I feed him his bottle and he starts to settle down a little bit . "Is that better?" I asked him . I take the bottle out of his mouth and he starts crying extremely loudly . "Okay buddy you're alright" I say to him. I lift him up on my shoulder and start to burp him . after I finished feeding him I gently rocked him back and forward until he fell asleep in my arms. I laid him down in his crib. I turned on both of the baby monitors on and then took one with me to my bedroom . I immediately grabbed my cell phone and called my school to explain the situation to them and to tell them that I wasn't going to be in school for at least the rest of the week . After I finished telling my school what's going on I planned to call my foster parents to tell them what had happened . However John had other plans . Just then I heard John crying from his room . "what's wrong buddy ? "I ask him as I walk over to the crib. "Okay  buddy you are okay" I say to him after I left him up into my arms . shsh I sway for a few minutes before realizing that he is in need of another diaper change . I lay him down on the change table and begin to get him undressed. As I am changing him I sing to him to help him to relax. Unfortunately despite my best efforts he is still very fussy. After I get him changed I wrap him back up in a blanket in an attempt to keep him  calm and comfortable as possible . Once again I sit down the rocking chair and rock him back and forth until he falls asleep in the comfort of my arms . I placed him back inside his crib . I go back into my bedroom to make few phone calls . First I call Ben's'  dad who is also my boss . I explained what had happened to him. Just after I spoke he said "Ricky its OK . I totally understand , you just do what you need to take care of yourself and your son" he told me . "Thank you so much Leo I really appreciate your understanding" I said to him. After I finished the phone conversation I realized John was sleeping . so I decided that now would be a good time for me to take a  quick shower. I take the  baby monitor with me to the bathroom.  15 minutes later just as I step out of the shower I hear john wake up crying. I quickly dry off and get dressed. By this time it is 630 and time for us to get up anyway. I walk back into the Nursery to see John . "good morning little man" I say to him as I left him up out of his crib and into my arms. "You are alright buddy." I put him over my shoulder and sway him gently . "I think it's time to get some breakfast . What do you think John ? Are you hungry ?" He continued crying in response to my questions . "alright I thought so" I said to him as I carried him to the kitchen. I placed into his crib and heated up a bottle for  him to eat. As I cradle him in my arms I think to myself how could Amy just abandon our son ? As I lift him up onto my shoulder to burp him I.  kiss him and say to him "John daddy loves you so much. I am never going to to leave you no matter what ."