On my own a The Secret Life of the American teenager fanfiction story

on my own part 39

Chapter 38 separation anxiety between father and and son part 2

Ricky POV

Without saying another word I turn around and walk out of the church Nursery. I walk back to my car and slipped back into the driver seat.

I took some time to collect my thoughts and emotions before I pulled out of the church Nursery parking lot and turned the corner to make to make my to make my way to school.

when I finally pull into the parking lot of Grant High School

I pulled my phone out of my pocket so that I could check my messages. As soon as I unlocked it I smiled down at my screensaver.

it was a photograph of John sitting up in his crib while he was in the Hospital while he was sick. in the photo he is holding his now favorite teddy bear blanket that Bella gave him. he has come to know it as Teddy.

I put my phone away and then grab my school bag from the passenger seat. After doing so I got out of my car and lock it.

As I am on my way to class Ethan stops me in the hallway.

" get lost! I don't have time to play games! If I don't hurry up I will be late for class and so will you if you don't take my advice and do the same." I told him.

" okay well, I honestly don't know what I did to you this morning to make you so upset with me. But I thought that I would be nice and give you a heads up." He said.

" I'm sorry, Ethan me being upset has got nothing to do with you. I'm just having a hard time right now." I told him confessed to him.

" what's wrong? You didn't get enough sleep last night because the kid kept you up?" He asked in kind of a condescending tone of voice.

" no! Well, that actually did happen last night but that's not why I'm upset. when I went to drop John off at the nursery this morning he was really fussy." I said.

" I'm sorry Ricky correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't the little rugrat always fussy when you go to leave him anywhere? the nursery? Amy's house? With Jack and Grace? Hell he's even fussy when you come over and drop him off with us." Ethan spoke.

" yeah I guess you're right he is very clingy and attached to me." I confessed.

" but it wasn't just that... there was something different about this morning at the nursery. the way he reached out for me when I did the handoff. The volume and intensity of his crying was higher and more passionate then ever before. I felt like I was betraying him, maybe even abandoning him." I spoke the last sentence barely above a whisper.

" Ricky listen, you and I both know that you never have and never will abandon your son. you and I both know what it's like do you have parents who are abusive and neglectful. You my friend are apparent who is neither neglectful or abusive.

" leaving your son at daycare so that you can go to school to get your education so you can go to college afterward and get a better more permanent job. Afterwards using the money you get from that job to provide everything and anything your son would ever want or need is not abusive!

" if anything it's admirable. Especially at your age, no offense. you are providing John with not only a stable home with all of his basic needs being met. he has enough food, clothing, toys, and diapers an infant could ever need." He told me.

my eyes just opened wide and stayed like that well I listen to him talk.

" you, my friend are also giving your little boy something that neither of us have ever had the privilege of being exposed to. You are giving your son A healthy and positive relationship with his father. you are providing him with a role model whom he can look up to." He finished what he was saying.