On my own a The Secret Life of the American teenager fanfiction story

On my own part 20

Chapter 19 the night of nightmares

Ricky pov

I just finished feeding John his bottle . Alright little man come on let's go and get you changed. After that it is off to bed for the night for you I told him as I brought him to the Nursery . Once I finished changing John I lifted him up and wrapped him in a blanket so that he would feel both safe and secure. Come on little man it's bedtime . You and I have a big day head of us tomorrow I told him as I walked over to the rocking chair. Its your first day back at the nursery since you've been home from hospital . It is also daddy's first day back at school and work since you have been home from the hospital I told him. I gently rocked him back and forth in my arms while singing a soothing lullaby to him at the same time . Before I knew it he was sound asleep . I gently laid him down in his crib . Goodnight little man daddy loves you so much I told him and then gave him a small kiss on the forehead before leaving the room . I double checked to make sure that both baby monitors were on before I put him down for the night . When I went back to the kitchen I set the baby monitor that I have on the countertop. I smiled at the sound of his soft snores and clear breathes. Then I quickly made myself some dinner and then sat down to eat . After finished eating dinner I washed the dishes . Then I went back to the living room and continued to read my book The Fault in Our Stars by John Green .

Amy pov

I feel so guilty so what I did to Ricky but more importantly I feel incredibly irresponsible and selfish for what I did to my son John . I know in my heart I did the right thing but for the wrong reason . I walked into the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea . Just then my mom came in . Amy what in the world are you doing ? She asked me irritated and surprised. You have treatment tomorrow , you shouldn't be up this late or early I guess . Why are you up after midnight ? Are you alright ? What's wrong? Are you in pain ? She asked me concerned and worried . Oh my gosh mom would you please stop asking me all these questions ! I raise my voice not loud enough for my dad and my sister Ashley to wake up . I know I have treatment tomorrow I told her. I mean how could I forget ? I've only been going 3 times a week for the past 2 months I told her. My face fell . the cattle was ready . I made myself a cup of tea while my mom continued to lecture me . I sat down at the table and then took a sip my warm beverage . To be honest with you mom I don't know I told her. You don't know what? She questioned me curiously . I don't know wwhat I'm going to do I said. What do you mean by that? Amy I don't understand what you're talking about she said. I mean I've been thinking lately I said. What about ? My mom asked me as she sat down aat the kitchen tab across from me. She put her cup of hot chocolate on the table . um well I've been thinking about um I looked down at the table avoiding eye contact with her . Amy come on tell me she asked . Amy you know you can tell me and or your father anything right ? She said. I guess so I nervously responded as I glanced up . I've been thinking about the night I told her. Wow well she hesitated to continue. Why have you been thinking about the night ? She asked me completely understanding when I was talking about . I've been thinking that I should go over to Ricky's apartment and explain what happened I said. Come on you and I both now he deserves to know the truth I told her . You're right he does deserve to know the truth she said. But more importantly John deserves to have the opportunity to have his mother back in his life if it is only for a short time she said. So then it's decided I'm going to go over toRicky's apartment tomorrow and tell him about the cancer I said as I took another sip of my tea.

Ricky pov

I turned the page of my book . Just then I heard a big thunder crap . I stopped reading and took a brief look out the window . The rain was coming down hard and I could see small flashes of lightning in the distance . Just then I heard John wake up and start crying . It's alright buddy daddy is coming I called to him. I stuck a bookmark in my book and got up to go and see my son . Hey little man its okay you're alright I said to him as I went over to his crib and lifted him up into my arms . There's nothing to be afraid of . Daddy is here now. Everything is alright I told John as I lovingly picked him up and made sure that he was tightly and securely wrapped up in his blanket . John continued crying and clung onto me tight as ever . I know, I know little man thunder and lightning can be scary sometimes I told him.  I brought him over to the changing table and quickly changed his diaper. There you go I said. We're all done John I said. Does that feel better now ? I asked him as I wrapped him back up in his blanket . I made sure that it was as comfortable as possible . I wanted him to feel safe and secure . Just as I sat down on the rocking chair I heard the doorbell rang . Oh great perfect timing . I wonder who could the out at this time of night i mattered under my breath .  I got up to go and answer it with a crying John still clung onto me . I did my best to try to get John as calm as possible before I opened the door . I was both astonished and heartbroken to see amy in tears with her younger sister Ashley by her side . What the hell are you two doing here at this time of night ? I asked angrily .