On my own a The Secret Life of the American teenager fanfiction story

on my own part 32

Chapter 30 the reality

Ricky's POV

I have to make a decision about when I think is the best time for Bella to meet Amy. I also have to finish my Christmas shopping before School winter break starts. I made arrangements with Amy and her family for John to spend a few hours with them so I can do some last-minute holiday errands. " alright John , come on it's time for you to go and see Mommy for a little while . Don't worry Daddy will be back as soon as he can to come and pick you up." I told him as I lifted him up out of his swing. I then grabbed his diaper bag that I had packed earlier and put it on my left shoulder as John laid his head down on my right. Once I am outside and at the car I gently placed a now asleep John in his car seat. He must be really tired. He was up relatively speaking late and was fussy, I guess I can't blame him I thought to myself as I got into the front seat off the car and started to drive to Amy's house. It took about 20 or so minutes before I pulled the car into Amy's driveway. " alright little man it looks like we are here" I said more talking to myself then to John because he was still sound asleep in the backseat of the car . I got out and went around To the backseat to unbuckle John out of his car seat . As soon as I opened the fasteners of the car seat he started crying as he began to wake up from his nap. " come on buddy , let's go see Mommy" I tell a fussy John as I am walking towards Amy's front door with him securely cradled in my arms. I really hope Amy makes this easy for me and agrees to meet Bella without a fight I think to myself. " Shh, Shh it's okay little man " I say to John as I try to comfort him while waiting For someone to answer the door after I rang the doorbell. I continue to soothe him for a little while longer until the door opens. " Oh hello Ricky please come in George greeted me. " hi John , how's my favorite grandson?" He asks in a playful tone . " actually dad John is you're only grandson so technically speaking he can't be your favorite" I hear Ashley tell George while coming down the hallway from behind him . " thank goodness for that especially considering my age, thank you sugar plum for pointing out that wonderful fact. " he told Ashley . " Well hello to you too Ashley" I said. " waaawaa, waaawaa " John started to cry. " okay , okay . It's alright ! Daddy's here , Daddy's here" I told John as I started to sway side to side in an to keep him calm. " what's wrong? Did we do something wrong? " Ashley asked concerned. " no, no he is just fussy. He fell asleep on the way over here and he woke up when got him out of the car " I explained to both Ashley and George. " where's Amy?" I ask while constantly trying to stay in-motion in order to soothe my fussy son. " she's upstairs taking her breathing treatments" George says " breathing treatments ? " I asked unsure of exactly what he is referring to . " the cancer has spread to her lungs deeper into Ricky " he says in a serious tone almost as if he is about to breakdown and cry . " Oh I see , I am so sorry to hear that George " I said to him. Just then we hear footsteps coming down the stairs . I look up from John and see Amy coming in our direction followed by Ann who is close behind her . Amy was wearing her oxygen tubes that were connected to her oxygen that was being held by Ann. "Hi Amy". I said nervously. "Hi Ricky , hey John ! How's Mommy's favorite baby boy?! She cooed to John. " He can't be your favorite baby boy if you only have one baby boy." Ashley muttered under her breath just loud enough for everyone to hear her clearly. " that's enough Ash ." George scolded her. " just saying." Ashley said and rolled her eyes at her father . George shook his head . " I'm so about Ashley's welcoming attitude." George apologized on Ashley's behalf. " it's fine" I said. " Amy , how are you ?" I asked her. "Well I've been better but I guess I'm doing alright." she said. " can I hold him?" She asked me. " yes of course you can hold John. " I said . " but not while you are standing up." Ann interjected. " but Mom I'm fine! I just want to hold my son! " Amy pleated to Ann in an irritated tone of voice. " I'm sorry honey , but you know what the doctor said. He told you no heavy lifting ! He also told you not to carry anything heavy around with you while walking around and I am sorry to tell you this but John qualifies as heavy." Ann told Amy. "OK ,fine." Amy says. " come on, let's go and sit down on the couch." I suggest , still swaying in place. Ann and George help to guide Amy to sit down on the couch. Ashley and I with a fussy John in my arms follow them into the living room. Once Amy is safely seated I go and take a seat beside her. " here John go and say hi to Mommy" I tell him as I gently place him into Amy's lap. I assist her by helping to support John's head properly. " Hey baby , Mommy love's you so much and she is so incredibly sorry for everything that she has done to you! Amy tells John with tears streaming down her face. "Amy I promise you that he forgives you" I told her. Just then John started crying. "Shh ,Shh it's alright little man Daddy's here , Daddy's here." I told John. " Mommy's here too" Amy told him. Despite both our soothing tones John didn't seem to be settling at all. " here let me take him for a minute " I told Amy as I lifted John out of her arms and back into my own. " Shh, shh it's okay, you're alright little man." I told John as I put him over my shoulder and rubbed his back in an attempt to get him to calm down. After a few minutes he eventually began to relax. I held him in my lap while I continued to talk to Amy. " so there is something I need to talk tell you about." I began to say once John settled down. " okay , well what is it?" Amy asked. I started seeing someone relatively speaking shortly after you left us." I started to say. " great so Adrian wouldn't take you in after you became a single teenage father , so you have to find some other slut to indulge you and your sexual addictions?" She remarks in an unnecessarily rude tone of voice. " no Amy! It's not like that ." I said in defense super automatic judgement. "Hey that's not fair ! At least Bella didn't voluntarily abandon her infant son with his teenage father! " I practically yelled in her face without realizing and that I upset an already fussy John who started freaking out in my lap. " Oh buddy Daddy's so sorry he made you cry !" I told John as I once again attempted to soothe him. " look Ricky if you think that I left John alone with you voluntarily then you're crazy!" In a stern voice , unable to yell because of her lack of oxygen and the fact that she was hooked up to all of the tubes connected to her oxygen machine. " Amy honestly I don't know what to think anymore" I told her. " all I know is I didn't come here so we could argue , I came here so that you and John could have an opportunity to build a relationship." I told her. " and I appreciate that you are willing to give me the opportunity to build a relationship with my son with the little time I have left . I'm sorry for snapping on you. It's just..." she began to tell me as tears streamed down her face . " it's just what Amy?" I asked unsure of why she was getting herself so upset. " it's just that even though I haven't exactly Been a memorable part of John's life these last few months I just can't bare the thought of another woman taking my place and his mind." She admitted. The room was silent for a moment with the exception of John's crying and my soothing sounds of attempted comfort. " Amy I honestly don't know what to say to make you feel better. But I will say this , I promise you that no matter how John views Bella in his mind that he will know who has mother is and was ." I reassured her. " there's something I need to ask you, promise me you will make sure that even after I'm gone that John continues to have a relationship with my family? " she asked. " don't worry Amy I promise you I will let your family to have a relationship with John. How else is he going to hear all of that juicy horror stories from his mother's childhood?" I asked her trying to keep light of the situation. " I guess you're right , if we are really being honest with ourselves here you don't know all that much about me . Do you? " she asked and then smiled. " no I guess you're right about that." I I confessed with a smirk followed by a light chuckle. " so will you meet her ? " I asked her . " will I meet who?"she asked. " will you meet Bella?" I asked her once again. " alright I Surrender ! But wait just to be clear about one thing , I will meet Bella not for you but for John and only John." She told me in a sarcastic tone of voice while staring at our son who was almost asleep in my arms. Just then Ann Walked into the living room. " Ricky would you and John like to stay for dinner?" She asked me. " yes please , thank you that sounds wonderful!" I told her.