More Than A Game

Chapter 49

In a fit of anger, Chad quickly looked over his shoulder before facing back to the road in front. It was within this moment, I had realised what the two girls at the cafe were acting so bizarrely about.

I groaned in annoyance to myself before sprinting in the direction Chad was going. When I was closer to him, I slowly down my pace and sighed wishing I knew how this was going to turn out.

"Chad wait, please."

Once again, I got no response and watched him in silence continue to walk wherever it was he wanted to go. In my mind, I desperately wanted to slap some sense into this boy but realised how stupid that thought was since I was the one to cause this whole mess.

"Chad seriously, just say something, anything. Please?"

"What is it that you want me to say? You know for a damn fact that I honestly didn't want to have a single thing to do with you. Yeah, so what, we made eye contact. Big f*cking deal Carmen -"

"Do you not know that I wanted to have something to do with you? After what happened in the cafe, I wanted to see if you're alright. Chad, I desperately wanted to check if you weren't upset."

" - That's not what happened when we were in Melbourne last month Carmen. I honestly don't care if you even wanted to ask whatever it was you wanted to ask, you didn't need to make it a big thing when the easiest thing you could have done was just continued with your carefree life that you have with Ollie."

"Just shut up already Chad, you're always acting like you're the victim. My life isn't carefree with Ollie, I hate it when you have to bring up the most irrelevant things."

"What the hell are you even doing here Carmen? Did I ask you to follow me out? No. Was there something I wanted from you? Nope. Can you think of a single reason that I'd want to talk to you after the crap you've given me for so long? Didn't think so."

"Nothing gives you the right to speak to me in this manner Chad, alright? I've been nothing but kind to you and this is the thanks I get from you?"

"You really think you been nice to me? You think. That sleeping with my god damn best friend was something I asked for? Maybe you should think twice before speaking Carmen, because right now, your words are f*cking foolish. My words might sound harsh right now, but boy your actions are even more venomous. You knew how close Ollie was to me and yet you had the nerve, to just break my heart to be with another man."

"And you don't think that kills me too Chad. I bet you don't even stop and wonder if I've got it bad aswell or if there are things I regret within my life. No, you're too busy picking fights with me."

"Oh yes, I can totally see how you trying to get in with Ollie is really breaking your heart. Yeah, it kills you so badly for you going behind my back. Carmen, you don't actually believe that I think you're hurting from our break up, do you? For Christ sakes Carmen, you chose to cheat on me like I was test or something. It's been a month Carmen, one f*cking month and your already dating Ollie. You're hurting Carmen, you've really got be kidding me." He gritted as he looked over to the ground. I could feel my heart beginning to intensify its beat. The last thing I wanted was to cause a fight, especially in such a public area.

"You don't know the least of it, don't you?"

"Uh yeah I do Carmen, you couldn't give two sh*ts about the way I am or my how my feelings are, so you just use me just like a piece of paper. I'm sorry but that's the way it is Carmen and that's the way it's always going be." He said shrugging before turning to his heel and making his way forwards.

"Chad. Chad, c'mon, are we really going to be doing this now? Please don't leave this way. I don't understand why you are choosing to be so stubborn!" I shouted crossing my arms in anger whilst watching Chad in silence crossing the road and turn the corner leaving me on my own with my very messy thoughts.

The few people either jogging or going on with their business that was on the opposite side of the road stared at me whilst I stood on the pathway staring into the distance, hoping to myself that Chad would come back.

But of course, in reality I knew Chad was never going to come back and probably even want to speak to me for that matter. It was harsh what he had said, he was right about that. But deep down I deserved all the bullets he fired at me after wounding him badly myself.

I froze and looked down at my hands which were shaking frantically. Settle down Carmen, we all know you aren't the victim in this dangerous game your playing. I thought to myself let a sigh escape from my lips. Chad was right, how could I be kind towards him when all I did was give him crap that he didn't deserve. Why would he suddenly get his forgiveness when I chose to break his heart?

That was when I remembered something. Ollie. Right now, he was probably wondering what his girlfriend was doing running after her ex, and to be honest, there was no way I could actually answer that question myself.

How would this incident affect our relationship now?

I slowly began to make my way back to the cafe when suddenly Ollie emerged out of nowhere, rushing towards me.

"Carmen? Are you alright?" He asked as I looked in his brown eyes. Right now, I could see sadness in his eyes and immediately felt a wave of guilt rising within me. How could I be so stupid leaving my boyfriend behind for a guy who clearly wanted nothing to do with me?

Right now, I was really mad at Chad for creating yet another argument between the two of us, but I was more mad at myself for following Chad. If I had of listened to Ollie in the first place, I would not have gotten myself in another mess that couldn't be cleaned up.

"Yeah. Yeah, I think I'm alright. I mean, no. I don't actually know. I'm sorry but I just want to go home now, with everything that happened, I don't feel right being here at the moment.

"If that's what you think is best for you Carmen." He responded as I let out a sigh of defeat. Today clearly wasn't my day and I wasn't sure if tomorrow would be too.