More Than A Game

Chapter 45

As I began my journey back to the house, I could feel my head becoming lightweight. I took several moments to analyse everything that happened. The once happy couple whose love was thought to take over the world had now disappeared.

Now that Chad was said to be my ex, I felt like all hope was gone. For the last several months, it felt like that the relationship thatI built with Chad was one of the only thing I had in my life; now that was gone, I had absolutely no idea what my next step would be.

I looked over my shoulder once again to see Chad still continuing to brutally box that stupid punching bag. My mind was a total mess as a bead of tears began to roll down my cheeks. I never expected for us to break out in another pathetic argument let alone find myself single once again. Angrily, I kicked a pebble against the floor as I watched sharply jump across the dusty soil as it suddenly stopped.

My mind was a whirlwind of emotions. As if the fight with Brayden wasn't enough and my confusion for where I actually stood with the feelings for Ollie, to top off everything, Chad just unexpectedly broken up with me.

Maybe Brayden was right. I was just a scandal awaiting to happen and that all I expected was nothing but a false sense of ecstasy. I've cheated on one of the people I've ever truly loved and now, feel as though I'm continually hurting Ollie without even trying.

I had gotten closer to the steps of the house, where I rushed up and had tried my absolute hardest to avoid any eye contact with Grace. I knew she hardly knew what had happened as she stopped in her steps and formed a smile upon her face.

"So how'd it go with Chad? Is everything alright with you guys?" She asked softly as I forced myself to hold back the wave of emotion I could feel coming on soon.

"I... I... I"

No matter how hard I tried to get a single word out, it had somehow seemed to dry up upon my lips as I suddenly buried my face against my hands.

"Oh god Carmen. Hey, hey settle down. I'm sure everything's going to be alright." Grace said as she took a seat next to me on the couch and tried her best to comfort me. Letting out loud sobs, I could feel my throat starting to become drier as I took deep breaths to control my breaths.

"No Grace. Nothing's going to be alright and nothing will ever be."

"I'm sorry, but I don't think I quite understand you Carmen. Just please take a deep breath, try to relax and then tell me what's actually going on."

I sighed as I removed my face from my hands and wiped away the tears from my eyes. I wasn't sure how I was going to tell Grace what was going on. Obviously I would have to tell her we'd broken up which would then lead to me explaining the whole story about my night with Ollie and honestly, I don't think I would have enough energy to do that.

"Well, I just went outside to try and talk with Chad so I could solve this stupid problem but for some reason he was ignoring me, which really annoyed me. So I started screaming at him and then unexpectedly he began questioning me and I done the same since I thought his behaviour was rather childish. So then we continued to yell at each other before Chad just randomly blurted out that it would be easier to break up because we aren't working out the way that was expected." I said as more tears streamed down my cheeks as I leant my head against Grace's shoulder. She came in closer as she gave me a hug.

I was scared. For so long, I had Chad by my side, he'd always be the first one to support me in times in struggle, now that he wasn't by my side, what was I meant to do without him?

"Did he actually give you a reason why he wanted to break up with you or exactly why nothing was working out for you two?"

"No, he just said it would just be easier to break up. Grace, I swear I don't actually know anything and if I did, I'd be glad to tell you all the details."