More Than A Game

Chapter 70

As I sat patiently next to the hospital bed where Chad's still body laid, I could feel myself losing hope as the seconds passed by. Never would I have ever imagined to see the man I love be in such a heartbreaking position.

Chad was one of the most strongest people in life I know and that included both on the field and off. To see someone who could have been superman to many people be in a such a vulnerable position as he was in was a sight that I wouldn't have wished even upon my worst enemy.

I stared at his body as the monitor on the opposite side continued its terrifying pattern. My heart beat at the same time as the monitor, each beat symbolising a tragic song awaiting the worst.

Tears started to filled my eyes as I moved my chair closer to Chad's bed and slowly laid my hands carefully on his stomach. The moment my hands touched his silky hospital gown, a bitter and cold shiver rushed down my spine as I let out a loud choke.

I looked up to the ceiling, my eyes beginning to sting. Right now, so many memories we shared between each other rushed through my mind as more tears rushed down my cheeks. Chad's infectious laugh and his radiating smile dominated my mind filling myself up with so much sadness and fear.

A white tube was fixated around near his mouth which honestly scared me. Dr Miller didn't say much about the tests that were run but I was concerned about it. I really didn't want anything to hurt him, that's if he was mentally in the right frame. Still to this point in time, I hoped that Chad wasn't in a coma or anything terrible like that. 

I wasn't sure what to do within this moment as I kept staring at Chad who I knew would obviously be unresponsive to me, to anybody really. I guess the silence must have scared me as I begin to start to talk to him as my hands slowly went to his hand which were loosely near his body. I slowly lifted his arm as I started to cry aloud.

"I can't remember the last time I ever felt the same about another man the same way I felt when I'm around you. Because of you, you taught me how to open up once again, you taught me how much it means to find that one special person in life. That day when we broke up has scarred me permanently inside. I never expected to feel such a pain after a break up. They say you'll get over your ex because it wasn't meant to be but I never actually did get over it, I spent every single day of my doubting the choices I made in my life."

I paused from my words as the room reverted back to the horrid sound from earlier before as I noticed as nurse eye through the blinds and then sharply moving away from the hospital room. I looked at the clock that sat on the cream coloured walls of the hospital room of number 20. Just being in room, I already was starting to feel uncomfortable but knew that I had to stay by Chad's side, no matter what happens. I took a deep sigh as I clasped my other hand over Chad's hand.

"I know it won't make any difference now but I still find it hard to forgive myself for what happened in Melbourne. I never should have gotten involved with another man, especially since I knew you were the one for me Chad, you always have been. The moment I found out that there was a chance we could get back together, I felt like it was a second chance at happiness, like it was a second chance to prove to that my heart belongs to you and only you.

But right now, the fact that a beautiful and amazing man like you is fighting for his life in hospital makes it hard for me to understand what's going to happen. You're honestly the best thing to ever happen in my life and if you were to go, I wouldn't know how I'd ever survive. Chad please, I love you. And I will always love you. But don't you dare die on your fans, your club and especially on me." I cried aloud as I slowly intertwined my fingers in Chad's and whilst there still wasn't any movement from him, I could still feeling the warmth in his hands against my soft fingers.