More Than A Game

Chapter 40

During Ollie and I's rather long and somewhat awkward walk to the hotel, everywhere I looked there seemed to be another happy couple who had come from tonight's Brownlow ceremony. A few of them had recognised me from earlier on and either waved or smiled to me.

I scanned around the busy streets of Melbourne, and was taken back by the beautiful city lights glistening all around me. The vibrant colours within the night reminded me of a wonderful fantasy that was filled various colours of the rainbow.

I pulled up my dress to allow myself to be able to walk freely as I continued to watch the bright lights fade past us walking forward. Honestly, the only reason I paid any attention to the city lights was because it was just another reason to distract me from my evergrowing list of problems.

Ollie looked over from behind me as I glanced over my shoulder awaiting for a response from him. Maybe I should have just waited for Chad at Crown instead of going to my hotel room with my boyfriends' best mate, whom unfortunately I had developed unwanted feelings for? Sighing, I turned to face back in front as Ollie began talking in a rather sad sounding way.

"So, Chad's speech tonight was nice, don't you think? I thought it was just that to say those things."

I stopped in my steps and looked up to the star filled nighttime sky as Ollie's slow tone rushed through my mind.

"Yes. It was very nice of him to say those things for the fans. He really does deserve that award." I said trying my hardest not to lose my emotions. I couldn't because really, there wasn't any point, not after the ongoing pain we've both been put through.

"Carmen, you know exactly that I wasn't referring to the fans."

"Then what exactly were you referring to Ollie? Were you trying to make me feel guilty about what I've been doing behind my boyfriend's back? Or even, you just don't give a damn anymore and feel the need to constantly try and make me sorry for you time and time again."

"Hang on. I don't understand why you're suddenly attacking me. The only reason why I bought up that stupid speech was because I felt bad alright? I felt bad for not being able to give you the same happiness that Chad gives you daily. Of course I give a damn about you Carmen, why else would I continuously keep trying to have you as my very own?"

"I don't know, I just don't honestly know anymore. Christ sake Ollie, how do I not know that I'm possibly throwing away the special and beautiful bond I have with Chad because of your boredom? You could easily just want somebody else to tell stories to -"

"It's because I love you. I love you Carmen. And you feel the exact same way for me, but for some reason you're still with Chad. You tell me that you're in love with me but then make it all about Chad. Chad, Chad, Chad and honestly, it hurts. What am I meant to do when the girl I love talks about another man in such a way?"

"Just stop it already. I'm so sick of you asking me all these questions just because you appear to be in stupid competition which is about competing for my attention with Chad. Seriously Ollie, just grow up already and stop acting like a little boy." I snapped and began hurrying away forwards. I knew the hotel was close yet for some reason, it had felt like it was miles away.

Just take me home already, take me back to Adelaide so I can escape my problems and sort it like the person I am.

Just as I was about to turn the corner, I could feel small droplets of rain beginning to fall upon myself as I cursed underneath my breath. Now was certainly a bad time for it to begin to rain. I froze as the moist liquid began to sink through the material of Brownlow dress as the blouse began to became damp.