Interesting Encounter

Chapter forty four

Nico

Thana.

The babies name, it's Thana. Sally named her before she died. I was currently living in the Jackson's house, taking care of Thana. The house is weirdly empty and lonely, even with Annabeth practically moved in.

It's been nearly a week, no sign of Percy. Leo is making a recovery, Annabeth is on her way to pick him up now, but Biannca...

The doctor's say she was to badly damaged. I say they don't have the equipment to repair it. Annabeth says that she's in a better place. I say she would never leave me in a situation like this willingly. My dad says he thinks it's his fault, and he doesn't want it to happen again. I say he doesn't want anything to happen to him. Hazel says she'll miss me. I say she's to scared to leave our father and her mother. Leo says he wishes it was him who died. I say he's the only one who's not a blatant lier.

So here I am, with my back against the wall. No where to run, stuck in this never ending circle. When I finally have it all right, everything goes all wrong. What did I ever to do anyone? Thana let out a little whimper.

I stood up from where I was sitting, holding her, and started bouncing her. Then the door opened and Annabeth came in, followed by Leo who now had two crutches- one permanent and one temporary. "Hello"

"Afternoon, Leo."

"Is this the little Thana I've heard so much about?" He limped forwards.

"In the flesh," I said, handing her over for him to hold.

"How was your day?" Annabeth said, as she closed the door.

"Fine, how was work?"

"Oh, the usual." slow silence crept over us, an awkward, stiff silence silence which feeds my insecurity. I wonder why, the friends which I thought I would always be with, left me one by one one the rode to fairer weather. And I'm stuck here in this storm, carrying for the child of a women to whom I was not related.

Sometimes I wish I were a trinity, so that if I lost a part of me, there would be a two of me to keep on living. And if someone else lost a part of them, and took me with them, I had two people to help me get myself back. I shivered, hugging myself tightly. I wish Percy was here- one of the last conversations we had was a fight about my depression, and now that my attention had been brought to the war being fought in my heart, I realize he was right. I only wish he was here to help fight this battle.

But the world is not a wish granting factory.

If you want something in this fucked up universe, you have to earn it three times over. What do I have to do to earn your love, Percy? Tell me, and I'll do it. I hope he's missing me as much as I am missing him. I hope he would give the same to have me as I would to have him.

Oh Percy, where are? Are you somewhere, just over the horizon, waiting for me? Are you hiding, not caring about the situation you left me in? Are you looking for me, as I am for you? Are you running? Are in danger? Is your heart still beating blood through your veins? Do you still remember the taste of my lips? Do you care?

I shivered again. This darkness has a hunger thats insatiable, and the light, the light that I know is just around the corner, the light has a call that's hard to hear. I wrap my fear around me like a blanket, and pretend everything is fine.

"Nico?" Annabeth was looking at me curiously.

"Any word on Percy?" My voice breaks, and I fail to give myself even false hope.

"No, but, Nico, the police-"

"I'll be in my room if you need me." I said, walking up stairs and slamming the door.

I dreamed Percy's dream for him, I made his dream real. I love Percy like the stars above me, and I'll love him till the day I die. There's a place for us, a place for me and Percy. Somewhere, someway, I'll make sure we both make it to that place. And when we walk up to that place, we'll walk to it on different streets- but they're both the streets of love.

We'll get there. And when we do, I'll know. I'll know because we'll have finally made it all right- one day we will. One day, he'll come back for me. He'll come back, we'll be alright. He will come to me, I'm hoping just because I say the words that they're true.

I close my eyes, and pretend I'm fine, but I'm really not this time.