Shadows of The Past

Chapter 36

Alaska's POV

I was kissing Jace.

I was kissing the guy who annoyed me endlessly during his first few days in Forks High.

I was kissing the guy who said he loved me.

I was kissing the guy who swept me off my feet.

But I was also kissing the guy who betrayed me.

I pulled away from Jace, a little breathless. My lips were already swollen from all the kissing we just did and when I looked up from my lashes, I could see that Jace was also in the same state. He rested his forehead against mine and I could feel his erratic heartbeat as my right hand was still on his chest, over his heart.

"Wow." Jace whispered and his breath felt warm midst the rain that was effectively drenching us and leaving me shivering.

I couldn't manage the thoughts that ran through my mind, let alone form a coherent sentence to reply him. But I knew that I agreed with Jace, the kiss was wow and god knows how long I've been wanting to do that.

But we weren't together. Doesn't that complicate things?

I didn't even know what we were. Were we friends? Frenemies? Just two love struck teenagers? Was this skinny love? Am I still in love with Jace?

"Ally," Jace breathed out and pulled away slightly to study my face. He was stroking my cheeks with one hand while his other hand was holding onto mine. "Don't overthink this." He said as if he knew exactly what I was thinking about.

"I can't do this to you, not when I'm still confused myself." I answered softly. Jace stopped stroking my cheeks and slid his hand down to my chin and lifted it up so that I was looking into his stormy eyes.

"Do you love me?" He asked.

"I don't know." I said honestly. I untangled my fingers from his and took a step back. "I've to go Jace." I barely whispered before I swirled around and took off running in the rain.

"Ally!" I heard Jace shout after me but I didn't turn around or stop running.

I didn't know if it was the rain, the cold wind or the adrenaline but something was pumping my muscles and urging me to run as fast as I could. I made it to Forks High within 5 minutes and I continued dashing down the street to my house without stopping for even a second. I ran and ran, feeling the rain against my skin as I tried hard not to think about what I just left behind. But even then, my mind kept going back to the kiss.

The way Jace's lips felt against mine, the way he held me so close to him, the way he said my name after the kiss and the way he looked at me like I was his only source of light in his life.

I shook my head and snapped out of my thoughts the minute I saw my house. I literally sprinted inside and headed towards Alec's room without thinking twice. I knew that he and the other footballers had been given half the day off since they had a match the previous day and had returned back victoriously. To say that Principal Logan was happy would be an utter understatement.

Without pausing, I threw open my brother's room door. Alec looked up from his laptop and his eyebrows shot up as he eyed me up and down. My hair and clothes were dripping water onto the carpet and I was slightly shivering.

"What the hell happened to you?" Alec asked as he stood up and grabbed a towel from his wardrobe before throwing it to me. "And why are you back home so early?"

"That's not important," I ignored his questions as I wrapped the towel around me and sat down on the floor. Alec closed his laptop and joined me as he sat on the floor, cross legged across from me. "I just kissed Jace."