Solo Dms • Mgc

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Hannah's POV

Im broken I just didn't know it was this bad. I was so broken. I hated myself. I need Michael. But now that he saw me in Calums arms he won't ever forgive me. I just broke down and Calum was the only person that was there to help me. As soon as Michael saw my tear stained face he turned around and started walking in the opposite direction. I bust out of Calums arms and run after him. I couldn't find him anywhere in the house so I went outside. I looked around and walked a little down the street. There he was. Curled up in a ball against the brick wall behind him. You could hear his loud sobs over the music and I felt so bad. What have I done to him. I walk quietly towards him and sit down next to him. I wrap my arms around him and pet his hair. He sobs into my chest and I let my tears fall too. What is happening I'm so confused.
"Babe, I'm sorry. I want to explain but I will when your ready." I whisper to him. I kiss his head and he responds.
"Explain." He says in his broken voice.
"Michael I'm broken. I want to tell you about my past but right now is not the time. I'm broken and when I'm drunk things just start to hit me. I broke down crying while you were in the bathroom and the only person there was Calum."

"Calum was the only person that was there to help me since you were in the bathroom. I love you Michael I would never purposely hurt you. I'm so sorry."
I explained. He looked up and stared into my puffy eyes. He then crashed his lips into mine and let his tears fall still. He pulled back and talked.

"I'm sorry babe. I wish I could have been there. I'm so sorry. I suck at being a boyfriend." He said.

"No babe. Your the best boyfriend there is." I said. I kiss him again and pet his light purple hair. "Do you want to go home babe?" I said and he nodded.

I picked up his fragile body and walked with him to the car. Even though he was taller than me he still somehow managed to have his head tucked in my neck and have his arms wrapped around my waist. We got to the car so I put him in the passenger seat because I felt sober enough to drive. I put him in the car and buckled him up. I knew he was capable of doing it on his own I just wanted to take care of him.

"I'm going to go tell Calum and Ash and Luke that were leaving ok?" I told him. He nodded and I shut the door. I walked into the building and searched for Calum. I found him with saw him with Sally and Ash so I went up to them.

"Hey me and Michael are leaving. He's really tired so we'll see you later." I smiled and they nodded. Ash and Calum and Sally hugged me and said goodbye. I went outside after telling Luke and went to the car. I opened the door and saw that Michael had fallen asleep in a little ball in his seat so I cranked the car and drove to his house. He snores and it's the cutest thing I think I've ever heard. Other than his adorable laugh. Michael is what was keeping me together. He's the reason I haven't killed myself yet. He's the reason I'm 3 months clean. He is everything to me. But he doesn't see that. When I arrived at his house I got out of the car and went up to his door unlocking it. I open the door and place the keys on the counter before going back outside. I open the door on Michaels side and unbuckle him. He wakes up and lazily gets out into my arms. I basically carry him in with his help. When we get inside I lock the door behind us and go upstairs with him. I put him on the bed and take his shirt off. I pull his pants off as well slowly after. I look at his shaking freezing body and grab a shirt of his out of his dresser and pull a pair of pants out as well. I got him dressed then lasted him down. I got undressed and heard Michael mumble.

"What did you say babe?" I turn around asking him. He motions for me to come to him. I walk over to him in nothing but my panties and bra and sit down next to him. He examines my body and then looks at my face with worry in his eyes. He then places his hand on my thigh.

"Why would you do this Hannah?" He said touching my scars. I felt tears sting my eyes but I wouldn't let them fall.

"I-I don't know. I just went through rough times and the only thing I felt to make me feel better was to make my legs bleed." He had tears in his eyes and I felt so guilty. "I'm 3 months clean though. Because of you. You make me so happy. Your the reason I'm not dead right now." He let his tears fall after I said that and he pulled my face down to his.

"Promise me you won't ever do this again." He said in between his soft sobs. I nod and he puts his lips on mine.

I pull back and get up to go get dressed. I pull on his shirt and walk back over to the bed where Michael laid and stared at me. He opened his arms and I laid down in his arms. I faced him so I put my lips on his. I just let my lips sit on his for a while before I pulled back and looked at him.

"I love you with all my heart Hannah."

"I love you with all my heart Michael." I say back.

The rest of the night we spend kissing and saying I love you back and forth. Michael finally falls asleep at about 4 in the morning and I watch him sleep in a very peaceful state. I kiss him a few times in his sleep and every time he smiles in his sleep. I didn't sleep at all tonight I just wanted to watch Michael because watching him made me happy.
He woke up at around 11 in the morning and I still hadn't fell asleep.

"Babe, you look tired as hell." He said.

"I didn't sleep." I told him.

"Babe why?" He asked with worry in his eyes.

"I don't know I just wanted to look at you and watch you sleep." I said. He smiled.

"That's cute babe." He said. "But I wish you would have slept." He said. I leaned in and kissed his lips.

"You're so beautiful baby." He said. I smiled at his words. I grabbed his hand and fiddled with his fingers.

"Are you comfortable enough to tell me about your past yet?" He asked.

"I guess. Well when I was around 11 years old."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ANOTHER CLIFFHANGER. Thank you so much for reading I really appreciate it. This was my favorite chapter to write omg. Follow me on my Instagram at @grindingoncal for updates. I love you guys. Thank you for reading.