Just A Mistake ✔

When you make a mistake there are only three things you should ever do about it;admit it,learn from it and don't repeat it.
~Paul Bear Bryant

I was once heard that quote from someone. She even told me that if you made a mistake doesn't mean you're a failure. But I AM. I am a failure to my family. I am a failure to myself. A disgrace.

I smiled bitterly as the memories flashing back on my mind. Ayoko ng maalala. Kasi sa bawat maaalala ko nasasaktan lang ako at paulit ulit na nasasaktan.

"Ma'am,magsisimula na po." I looked up and saw a woman wearing a formal attire. I just smiled. A fake one. Again. I should be happy right? Dahil ikakasal ako sa taong matagal ko ng mahal? Pero bakit imbis na magdiwang ang buong pagkatao ko hindi ko magawa?

Because this is a mistake Beatrix. My mind corrected. Pagak akong napatawa saka umiling. Right. A mistake. Our mistake.

"Ma'am-" Bago niya pa matapos ang sasabihin niya ay kusa na akong lumabas ng sasakyan. Mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng sakit dahil nakita ko na simbahan kung saan ako ikakasal.

Sabi nila dapat masaya ka sa araw ng kasal mo dahil ito ang pinakamasaya at magandang araw na mangyayari sa buong buhay mo. Pero bakit ako nasasaktan?

Dahan-dahan akong naglakad hanggang sa makarating ako sa pintuan ng simbahan.

This is it Beatrix. Ikakasal ka na sa lalaking mahal mo. Smile. Pilitin mong sumaya. I convinced myself and I did. I smiled but the saddest smile I could ever wear in my entire life.

Nagsimulang bumukas ang pintuan ng simbahan kasabay ng pagtunog ng isang hindi pamilyar na kanta sa akin. Hindi na ako nagulat kung bumungad sakin ang maraming tao na nag-aabang sa pagdating ko. I just flashed my smile to them.

This is it. I'm really going to marry the love of my life but for him I am just nothing but a stranger now. I know this will not be good as on what I thought it could be.

I am going to marry the guy who thinks that I am JUST HIS MISTAKE.

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