The Sweetest Scheme of Fate (Defying Fate Trilogy #1)

Chapter 48: Agonizing Goodbye

Warning: Heartrending chapter. I cried a lot while writing this chapter. *****

I woke up in his arms. My head was lying on one of his arm while his other arm was securely wrapped around my waist. Magkadikit ang mga katawan naming dalawa at dama ko ang panatag niyang paghinga sa ulo ko. Amoy ko pa rin hanggang ngayon ang alak sa katawan niya pero ang mas nakakapagpabilis ng takbo ng puso ko ay ang init ng katawan niyang bumabalot sa sa'kin at ang naghuhuramentadong bagay sa loob ng dibdib niya.

I slowly opened my eyes and there I realized that I was facing his bare chest. Ang bango ng katawan niya ay humahalo sa amoy ng alak. Nakasubsob ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya. And I found myself too, hugging him so tight. So tight as if I didn't want to let him go. So tight as if I would lose my life if I would loosen my arms around him. At mas hinigpitan ko pa lalo ang yakap ko sa kanya bago ako nagbuntong-hininga. Sana, lagi na lang kaming ganito.

I tilted my head to take a peek on his face. He was soundly sleeping. I stared at his peaceful face and I thought that I just found a peaceful haven for my heart. It was as if I found everything that I wanted and needed by just looking at him. How I loved this man. And every single detail that happened last night came flashing back inside my head.

He laid me down on his bed as he continued kissing me. I was totally lost on what he was doing and I just let my body react in his every move. His tongue stuck out and I involuntarily parted my lips to welcome it inside my mouth. He groaned and I cupped his face to pull him closer against me and to deepen the kiss even more.

I felt his hands started roaming all over my body. His fingers made their way from my cheeks, down to my neck and descended to the side of my body. He traced my shape using his fingers. Mabagal, parang nanunuya at nakaramdam ako ng kakaibang init sa katawan ko. Parang kiniliti ako nang gumapang ang mga daliri niya sa may tagiliran ko. At napaliyad ako nang maramdaman ko ang mga ito na pinaglalaruan na ang pagkababae ko.

"Hmmmm..." I couldn't help but moan. Lalong nagkadikit ang mga katawan namin at mas nakaramdam ako ng init sa buong sistema ko. I felt something poking on my tummy. I gasped because I knew what exactly it was. "Hanns..." I heard myself whimpering his name releatedly.

"I love you, Hannah," he whispered as his mouth trailed down to my neck. "So much." His voice was still thick because of crying. My eyes fluttered close because of the anticipation that he was giving me. "Mahal na mahal kita." Patuloy siya sa paghahalik sa leeg ko pero dama ko pa rin ang sakit sa boses niya.

I said nothing and drowned myself instead into the pleasure that I was feeling. Alam kong nakainom siya pero alam ko rin na aware siya sa ginagawa niya. "Oh, Hanns." Napasinghap ako nang bahagya niyang kagatin ang kanang balikat ko bago niya marahang hinalik-halikan ito. Lalong nakadagdag ang ginawa niya sa init ng katawan na nararamdaman ko.

"Ikaw lang ang mahal ko at ikaw lang ang mamahalin ko." Nag-angat siya ng tingin sa akin at nagkasalubong ang mga mata namin. His eyes were still watering with tears. Humaplos sa puso ko ang sakit na nararamdaman niya.

"Ikaw lang, Hannah," dagdag niya bago niya isinuksok ang mukha niya sa gilid ng leeg ko at narinig ko ang mga paghikbi niya. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang sakit na nararamdaman niya sa bawat hikbi na naririnig ko mula sa kanya. His sobs were undeniably painful that it splintered my soul into pieces.

I wrapped my arms around him. His body shook as he cried. I took a deep intake of breath as I felt my eyes sting with unshed tears too. He's really hurt. So do I. Ang sakit ng pag-iyak niya to the point na parang hindi na lang siya umiiyak. Humahagulgol na siya.

"Hanns..." I whispered his name but he just continued to sob at the crook of my neck.

"Mahal na mahal kita, Hannah, alam mo ba 'yun?" he mumbled in between sobs. Tagos hanggang puso ko ang bawat pagpiyok ng boses niya.