The Sweetest Scheme of Fate (Defying Fate Trilogy #1)

Chapter 43: Ardent Devotion

We continued kissing. Hindi siya nagmulat ng mga mata niya samantalang ako ay napapikit na rin dahil sa lalim ng halik na ginagawa niya. He was nibbling my lower lip hungrily while I was returning his kisses with much intensity as his.

I felt him move and the moment I opened my eyes, he was already on my top. Pero hinayaan ko lang siya. Hindi ako umangal, hindi ako nagprotesta at nagpatuloy lang kami sa paghahalikan. The kiss deepened as I welcomed his weight over me.

Lalong bumilis ang pintig ng puso ko. Nalulunod na ako sa mga halik na ginagawa ni Hanns at napapikit na ulit ako. I missed him so much and I want to savour every single second of his every mind-blowing yet sweet kiss.

I didn't know what I was thinking that time. Is it his lips which were playing with mine? Is it the sweet taste of his mouth? Is it him who was on my top? Or is it the question why he was kissing me? Or maybe I was too stunned by the fact that we were passionately kissing that I couldn't gather my wits.

We were both mewling and I wrapped my arms aroud his neck as the kiss got more intensified. I was in complete surrender. Kahit ang hirap ng hindi huminga ay tiniis ko kasi parang gutom na gutom ang mga labi niya. Palalim nang palalim ang mga halik niya na parang bang na para bang gusto nitong suyurin ang buo kong pagkatao.

He was so aggressive and I let him take me into his aggressiveness. And I realized that I missed his lips too. So much. I missed every single damn thing about him -- his smiles, his laughters, his stares, his hugs and his kisses.

His mouth moved down to my chin before he rained small kisses through my jaw line. I almost cussed in pleasure as a cold tremor ran down my spine. I didn't open my eyes and I tilted my head upward when his lips trailed down to my neck. My breathing was ragged as he nuzzled my neck. The familiar sensations filled my body. A kind of delicious sensation that only Hanns can give me.

I was loving everything that he was doing although I wasn't sure what was really happening to him. I heard him moan and just a split second after, I felt his full weight on me as he completely stopped moving. My brows furrowed until I felt him breathe evenly. I expelled a heavy breath.

"Hanns..." bulong ko sa pangalan niya pero hindi na siya gumalaw at nanatiling nakasubsob sa leeg ko ang mukha niya. I sighed again and circled my arms around his waist. Namuo ang mga luha sa mga mata ko kasabay ng paninikip ng dibdib ko.

We've kissed. But I do not know if he knew that he kissed me. I do not know if he would remember that he initiated that kiss. I do not know how long would I wait until I kiss those soft pinkish lips of him again. I closed my eyes as questions flooded my head.

Is it possible that he was only dreaming? Nananaginip lang ba siya kaya niya ako biglang hinalikan? Siguro. Kasi bakit naman niya ako hahalikan kung hindi naman niya ako kilala? Why would he kiss a stranger? Stranger. How bitter it sounded to my ears.

But somehow, hope bloomed in my heart while he was kissing me. Kahit papaano ay umasa na ako na naaalala na niya ako. Sa lalim ng halik na ibinigay niya sa akin, naramdaman ko ang pagmamahal niya.

I felt my Hanns on the way he kissed me. Na para bang siya 'yung Hanns na walang amnesia. Siya 'yung Hanns na laging ipinaparamdam sa akin kung gaano niya ako kamahal. Siya 'yung Hanns na sweet. Siya 'yung Hanns ko. Hindi parang ibang tao ang kasama ko dito sa kwarto niya. Kaya kahit na papaano, kahit na sa ilang sandali lang, umasa ako. Umasa ako na bumalik na nga siya sa akin.

Pero hanggang doon lang 'yun. Hanggang sa umasa lang ang kaya kong gawin. Ayaw kong paniwalain ang sarili ko na naaalala na nga niya ako kasi tulog siya nang mangyari ang halik na 'yun at baka lalo lang akong masaktan. Okay lang na umasa ako kahit saglit lang pero kaya ko pa rin namang tanggapin ang katotohanan -- the kiss was only a dream for him although it was a reality for me.