Sheo's Story

Chapter Seventy-Three

Theo's POV:

I literally feel my heart beat hard enough to break through my chest, it feels like someone has dropped a weight in my stomach and for a couple of seconds I forget how to breathe, because this has gone from us thinking it was a crazy and nothing serious, to knowing it's my sister, there's obviously going to be more where that came from. I finish the conversation abruptly and hang up, Shai takes my hands and asks me what's going. I can see the worry in her eyes and part of me doesn't want to tell her because I can't stand watching that worry turn into fear or anger. Sometimes I sit and think about how much easier Shai's life was without me in it, and if I really loved her the fair thing for me to do would be to leave her to live a happy life with someone who can love her too, without all of the drama I've managed to bring to her. "The text was from my sister." I say looking away as I can't bear to look her in the eyes. She gets onto her knees and puts one either side of me so she's sitting on my lap and holds both of my hands. "Well then we'll talk to her, together." She said confidently, but I can't do it. I can't be happy knowing I'm causing so much hassle for her. I can't live with that. I shake my head and rest my forehead against hers. "I'm sorry Shai, I love you, you know that, but it's because I love you that I can't be in your life, everything bad that's happened to us has been because of me, and I can not stand the fact I'm the one putting you through all of this stress, and there's no way I'm letting any danger get near our baby." Her eyes start to fill with tears and she wipes them before they have a chance to fall. I feel the lump in my throat too, but I've got to be strong for us, this is the right thing to do. She takes a deep breath in and lets go of my hands. "Are you crazy Theo?" She said angrily, "we have just got married and we are about to raise a child together. I married you Theo not despite all of the problems we've had, because all of them, together we have managed to get through anything thrown our way and there is no way I would have been able to do it without you, so if you think I can raise a baby on my own, and actually carry on my life myself, without you, you must be out of your mind. I love you more than you know, clearly, I need you in my life and that is the only thing I care about right now. If you sister wants to try and break us up, let her, we're so much stronger than her hate for us." I take a few moments to process everything she said as it came out in one big, fast sentence. I know she has a point, we are so much stronger together but I feel like I'm ruining her life. Before I have the chance to even say anything Shai walks out and sits in the living room, I'm guessing she doesn't want me to follow because she's never done that before. 

After having a few hours to really think about what I want and what's right, I finally understand where Shai's coming from, if this was the other way and she was planning on walking out on me like that I would be totally lost without her. Especially since I know something about is special, but I need to put an end to this whole thing without her and my child getting stressed along the way. I text my mum telling her what's going but not to say anything, because I will be coming to London shortly and I can finally sort this whole mess out. 

I walk into the living room shyly and sit next to Shai, I can see she'd been crying a lot, and I couldn't feel worse. I gave her the chance to speak first because I could tell she needed to say something. "Yes, we've been through a lot, but none of that has ever hurt or scared me as much as you just did." It hurt me hearing them words, but I can't even fight it. "I know," I admit, "I just panicked because I wasn't expecting it and you are the only person I care about protecting." I say taking her hand back into mine. "I'm so sorry, I just thought that might be best for you." She rolls her eyes at me and leans her head back in frustration I'm assuming. "You're an idiot, you are best for me." She says before kissing me again. I can tell she's not totally forgiven me yet but this was a start. I'll tell her about London tomorrow, she doesn't even have to come if she doesn't want to. 

Shai's POV:

I swear I have never been more terrified in my life. The love of my life just threatened to leave me and for the few hours I had to myself I couldn't help but picture my life just falling apart, he is literally the person that brings all of the pieces together and makes them make sense. If we were only a couple of months into our relationship I would understand where he's coming from but where we're at now, thinking like that just isn't good enough, we're married for gods sake. I look over to him and I can see him clenching his jaw every now and then and I know he still feels bad, which he should, but it hurts me seeing him sad. That's how I know what we have is real, because he can say the most stupid, almost offensive things to me and I will always feel sad seeing him feel guilty. 

I couldn't stand the awkwardness anymore so I got our duvet from the bed and put on some Disney movies with him. After all I guess we should get used to cartoons being on all of the time. I can tell the whole situation is still at the back of his mind because we hadn't even had a chance to talk about it yet, but I'm not in the mood to bring it up now. He takes a piece of popcorn from the bowl and cheekily throws it at me, I raise my eyebrow at him and laugh, throwing a piece back. It wasn't long at all until we were in a full blown popcorn fight, pulling each other off of the coach and rolling around on the floor. After a long struggle, I pinned him and kissed him softly, he wrapped his arms around me and brought me closer to him. We must've just been on the floor for hours in each other's arms before either of us noticed the time, but didn't move anyway.