Sheo's Story

Chapter 85

Shai's POV:

The day has come and Theo is leaving for London. We both knew job offers would happen but I always thought we would work out a way to do them together. It's about 4AM and I just can't get back to sleep, Theo's going to be gone for about two weeks as it makes sense for him to stay out there until he finds out if he's got the job or not. I've not allowed myself to cry until right now, there's so, so many things about him I'm going to miss and need in my life. It was hard enough when I had to film The Fault in our Stars. I know we promised to always be honest with each other but I can't tell him about this, I can't bring myself to tell him how selfishly I'm thinking.

I watch him in a peaceful sleep, getting all the rest he needs before he flies off to London. I must have gotten lost in thought for a few hours as the sound of his alarm wakes me from my day dream, and him from his sleep. He leans up and kisses me out of habit, and mumbles a good morning whilst he tries to adjust to being awake. I lean into him and hug him tight, and he holds me back just as tight. I have the feeling for a minute that neither of us want to let go, but eventually we have to.

He gets out of bed and checks that he has everything he needs, I just sit and watch him silently double checking as he goes along. I lay down and place my hands on the bump, it's getting so big now it makes me smile. Theo may be leaving, but a part of him will always be here with me. Our little man. I didn't notice Theo next to me until his put his hand on the bump too, smiling down at me.

"I can still say no." He whispers, reading my mind. I shake my head, placing my hand upon his.

"When you get back, we'll have to tell the fans about the delay with Insurgent and the pregnancy." I really can't talk to him about him staying because I know I'll tell him to stay, and he will. He nods his head, obviously noticing the fact I didn't answer him and he kisses me.

We both head down to the car, and drive to the airport. We drive in almost silence until I really can't take it anymore.

"God, Theo, I love you so much, more than you could imagine." I keep my eyes ahead, holding back tears.

"I love you too, I'll be back before you know it." He smiles, something I've noticed about Theo is that he'll always try and act strong around me. I wish he knew that I didn't need that, but I didn't want him to feel unneeded.
"We'll FaceTime every night, yeah?" I half ask and half tell him. A phone call just isn't enough anymore.
"No doubt."
Theo's POV:
I can tell Shai doesn't want me to go, her tone of voice, the way she looks at me, everything about her is telling me to stay, I think. Or I could just be imagining it, because that's what I want her to be feeling. I hold her so tightly before I leave to get on the plane, and I know that's the last time I'll be seeing her a few weeks.
Sitting on the plane I have no option but to think, about everything. What kind of husband leaves his pregnant wife to fly to a whole different part of the world? I've left her alone in a new house whilst I worry about my career. I have to close my eyes to attempt to block out the thought of a vulnerable Shai, she's strong, she doesn't need me 24/7. I think I need her though.