My name is Maria Josephine La Rose. I was born in France but raised in the city of New York. One word that describes me... WORKAHOLIC, yeah I'm addicted; But who knew that a little latte incident would change my whole life ? get me hooked on a new d...
~Omniscient P.O.V~ 11 pm "Push!" "push!" the doctor said as I tried to muster up enough energy to finally get this child out and all this over with. Next to me was a beautiful short African-American nurse with brunette permed hair and bold brown eyes who held onto my hand guiding me through step by step. "Honey I know your in pain, and I know your panicking but you need to push as hard as you can , you're the only hope for this baby " "I can't .." I groaned in pain , biting down on my teeth . "You can, I'm here for you , now on the count of three , I want you to push as hard as you can " I gripped tightly onto her hand groaning and screaming in pain "1........ 2......" she paused allowing me to catch my breath "3!!" then in one big push , I could feel the walls of my vagina tearing apart, and the body forcing its way through my passage the head was out and with a second push the baby twisted, sliding the rest of its body out . "Thank God" I breathed as I weakly fell back on the bed before falling into a much needed sleep. *2 hours later* My eyes peeled open revealing a world full of blur which cleared apart in seconds , the left of my cranium (head) ached leaving my brain numb, slowly, I sat upright in my hospital bed and my eyes darted over to the incubator beside my bed
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"Where's my baby?" I asked curiously when I realized that the doctor and nurses were still in the room communicating. Seeing that none of them were answering, I screamed in fury "Where's my fucking BABY?!"I mustered up all I had inside me . The anger I had did not cease when the tall dark female doctor with pitiful eyes, reached and clasped my left hand in her's . The sound of my increasing heartbeat pounded in my chest , I could feel that something was wrong .. " I know you might be worried right now, but I want you to know your not the first person to go through this .." The doctor said rubbing her thumb over the back of my palm. " Where's my baby!?" I growled "there was an accident and the umbilical cord wrapped tightly around the baby's neck , restricting respiration and by the time we got the cord loose ... " she (the doctor) paused .. I knew what she was about to say, I didn't want to hear any further.. " I want my baby.." I demanded.. "Mam I wouldn't advise for u to see your child in such condition.." "It's my child..let me see my baby" "Mam.." She hesitated to get me my baby "Get me my motherfucking child!!!! I want my baby!!!" I weeped , the doctor looked back at the nurse who stood attentively at the doorway who disappeared shortly After. I laid with weakened limbs and a broken heart crying my eyes out as the door creaked open and the nurse returned with my baby . Wrapped neatly in a white cotton blanket , I ran my thumb over my baby's Apple cheek , skin cold as ice and pale in pigment, i held the corpse carefully in my arms , Only if a mothers breath of air could bring her child back to life . Slowly I unwrapped the blanket revealing the bare body and also it's gender... "You had a lovely baby boy Mam, I'm very sorry this happened, you'll get through this, we'll recommend you to a therapist here at the hospital, it'll help you handle whatever your feeling right now.." The nurse encouraged , "No one knows what I'm feeling!" I lashed back , leading our convo into deep silence "What were you going to name him?" The nurse questioned breaking the awkward silence. "DJ... *i paused. Taking a deep breath as a tear drop from my eyes landed right on his cheek*Devin Junior" this was excruciating and heart breaking as fuck. I hugged him tightly crying asking God "why?? Why me??" "Would you like me to call the father?" She asked "There is no- I Paused- yes, yes please" when my water broke I kept calling Devin getting no answer what so ever... I gave her the number I knew and she exited the room to make the call.
