MY SECOND BUT TRUE LOVE #Wattys2016

CHAPTER SIXTY EIGHT

I sighed as I stood in front of the door to Amarion's room. I had to tell him that I was leaving sooner. With a firm intention, I opened the door and saw a very happy Amarion. He was on the bed with the guitar in his hands. He grinned as he saw me.

"Hey babe" he said excitedly.

"Hey" I replied as I stepped in.

"I thought it has been a while since I sang for you" he said and my heart shrunk. How could I tell him? He was so ecstatic and my words would take it all away. He may even wouldn't feel like crooning.

"You okay?" He asked and I snapped out of my thoughts.

"Yes" I lied and walked to him.

"Will you play the piece with me?" He asked with joy and I nodded. I tried to push the worry to the back of my mind but the more I saw him happy, the more it made me feel guilty.

"Come here" he patted his lap and kept the guitar on the bed.

"Can we go in the balcony?" I asked and his smile turned wider.

"Sure" he replied.

I held the guitar for him as we went to the balcony. The sky was brimming with stars and reminded me of the day Amarion confessed his feelings for me. I wondered what would have happened if I had said 'yes' then? Would we have been less hurt?

"Here" Amarion gestured at the mat in the corner. He sat on it and widened his arms for me. I smiled at my angel and sat in his lap. The guitar was in my hands. He placed his fingers on mine and guided them to the strings. He kissed under my earlobe and travelled down to my collarbone. I hitched and he kissed on my cheek. He slowly began to move his fingers along with mine. I stayed calm and tried to blend my attention in the music. I recognised the music that we produced. It was the song he had written for me.

"Two days" my subconscious reminded and I closed my eyes. I rested my head on his shoulder and he rested his cheek against the side of my head.

He began singing softly and I concentrated on his enchanting voice.

"The day I heard your voice, I knew I was prone to fall".

"And when I looked into your eyes, I knew I was about to give it all" .

"Because baby, your smile is brighter than the stars".

"And your heart is worth a hundred wars" .

"My world was very dark, you lit it up with your lovely spark".

"Close or apart. If you're ever lost, look for yourself in my heart"

I smiled as I heard the beautiful lyrics escape his mouth. The way he crooned each word was magical. The music was soft and his voice was softer.

"The night I held in you in my arms"

"I knew I was yours forever".

"And when I kissed you for the first time"

"I knew there was nothing I'd want more".

"Because baby, you're the one I've been waiting for"

"And you're the one I'll endlessly adore".

" 'Cause love, you're the stars and I'm the galaxies"

"And together we make the universe"

"To you I impart"

"If you're ever lost, look for yourself in my heart".

I was so lost in the music that I surrendered my fingers to his. He moved them on the strings and kissed on my cheek. My eyes were yet closed and as I listened closely to the lyrics, they seem to held more meaning than I had firstly understood. Each word from every 'I' to every 'heart', was written and sung with love. From a love I had grown so habitual of. How would I do without him? I had just spent a week but it felt more than that. How would it feel to not sleep in his comforting arms and wake up to not find him next to me? My heart began sinking into sadness already.

"The day I saw your fragments, I knew I had to make you whole"

"And the night you saved me, I knew we were out of the black hole" .

"Baby, you're the rose I had been searching gardens for"

"And you're my eternal amour".

"No matter to where you depart. If you're ever lost, look for yourself in my heart".

"To the end from the start. If you're ever lost, look for yourself in my heart" .

"Because that's where you'll always be".

"Close or apart"

"No matter to where you depart"

"To the end from the start"

"To you I impart"

"If you're ever lost, look for yourself in my heart".

The answer to my worries was in his song. No matter where I was, near him or afar, if I miss him and feel lost without him, I'll find him in my heart.
I realised the true meaning as I listened to each lyric profoundly. If I missed him, I just had to peek into my heart because he'll always be there. I smiled softly and opened my eyes. The sky had more stars than before and it had turned darker too. As if the stars were there too to listen to our song.

"Even if the stars burn out"

"Or if the waves stop to shout"

"You'll always have a home"

"And if we're ever lost, we'll look for ourselves in our hearts".

"Because that's where we'll always be".

I placed my hand on his chest and looked up at him as the music wore out. He looked down at me and smiled but then he frowned. I was confused with the sudden change in his expression but then he moved his finger from mine to my cheek.

"Are you okay?" He asked as he wiped something off my cheek and as I gazed at his fingertips, I realised it was a tear.

"Yeah, I am fine. I didn't realise when that was shed" I said and he smiled.

"No crying, okay?" He said and I nodded.

He played a few more songs for me, from my favourites. I allowed his voice to descend into my heart and echo in its smallest corners. I could spend the whole night listening to him but as I would sink into the melody, the thought of leaving made me sad. Amarion was so happy as he talked about his childhood and his singing experiences then. He taught me a few easy music pieces and I whole heartedly acquired it. But the thought of it being the second last night I'd spend with him was eating me from the inside.

"Amarion" I whispered as he kissed on the top of my head.

He hummed in response and rested his lips and chin on the spot where he kissed.

"Love me" I said and I felt his lips turning into a smile.

He set the guitar aside and placed his mighty arms around my body. With one jolt, he picked me up in his arms. I gazed at the sky and then into his eyes. The starlit ether didn't seem so amusing anymore, they appeared as a metaphor of his eyes. I smiled at him and he returned one. And there in that brief moment, I saw the abundant love he had for me. Yes, love can be seen and I witnessed it in his eyes. It is like a small butterfly that comes out of its cocoon and shines when its favourite flower comes to sight and the more it witnesses its beauty, the more it shines and flies impatiently along the circumference. And when the flower is gone, the butterfly conceals itself as before, waiting to flap its shinning wings in love for the flower again.

I didn't realise when Amarion carried me into the room and laid me on the bed for I was lost in his eyes. Each time I looked into those hazel orbs, I felt myself falling all over again. I became sane only when he began kissing my neck, dragging me back to insanity.

Was there an end to our love? No, there were just new beginnings.