Regain I ✔|EDITING|

chapter 9

After an hour or so I got up. I got myself together, took my keys and went straight for the door.

When I opened the door. Two cleaning ladies were standing there. Their mouths widened when they saw the mess I had made.

"Um sorry for that." I said as I left not waiting for them to reply. Poor them.

Amanda's POV

I got home and ran upstairs. Good thing I convinced my sister to leave insisting I was fine because right now I didn't feel like explaining anything to anyone.

I fell onto my bed and cried into my pillow. At that point I didn't know what I was going to do next. I was torn.

I kept replaying the moment over and over again. And with every time I would wish that he had kissed me.

Wait what am I saying, he was my freaking bestfriend.

From the first day I saw him and when I actually got to know him as a person. I knew that who ever he would find in the future would be the luckiest girl in the world.

Apart from the fact that he was undeniably sexy. He had a heart of gold. He could make you feel better in an instant. Make you smile. Does this mean that he loves me or he loved me.

God his eyes. They were filled with so much emotion, so much pain.

When he told me to leave, I could feel how much I hurt him. At that point I knew our friendship wouldn't be the same.

Do I love him, I think I love him, do I.

Would it sting if he looked me in the eyes and told me he didn't love me anymore.

Yes.
Would it pain to go meet him and find him with another girl.

Maybe.

Would it hurt if he died?

Wait what, who's asking these trivia questions anyways.

I wiped my tears away and stood up. I have to go, I had to go tell him that I loved him and I think I still do. I never had these butterflies when I thought of David, I guess he wasn't right for me.

That second I had with him. My heart skipped a million beats.

I don't need no psychologist to figure out I'm afraid of love. I'm afraid to lose myself into someone else.

It frightens me to know that one person can shatter my heart and build it up if they wanted. Making me weak by just one look.

But I guess you have to face your fears right?

I went downstairs and took his coat but this time I was wearing my own jersey. I looked in one of the contract papers where everyone's information was and I jotted down his address.

I got into the car and drove to his house. "I just hope he's there." I mumbled to myself.

I got to this beautiful house and security let me in easily. I wanted to just pop up, not have them announce my arrival, to surprise him.

"Arg" I retarted when I got out of the car and felt it was drissling. I ran for shelter.

I was scared out my pants. I didn't know what I was going to actually do or say .

I knocked but no one answered. I knocked again hoping this time he would open.

"Hek I'm going in" I mumbled to myself as I opened the door.

"Wooahh" I whispered to myself. This house was not far from perfection. It was amazing.

But no one was here. I climbed upstairs and thought I would just open the door and boom he would be here.

The first door I opened was a bedroom but I'm guessing a guest room since the room was barely decorated. Too plain for my liking.

I moved to the door on the end of the hall way. God I was nervous. I opened the door and my eyes where flustered.

The man was in his towel, from showing I suppose. My eyes couldn't look away until..

He saw me and he froze.
I immediately closed my eyes.

"Um um I'm sorry I just came to bring back your jacket." I said as I threw his jacket somewhere in front of me.

"I'll leave now." I said as I ran out downstairs.

"Ama wait." I heard him say but I just kept fast walking away.

Right by the door I felt a hand pull me back. When I turned around he was just a few inches away from me.

He was still in his towel. I wanted to look down just to check if he was actually ripped but if I did, it would make the situation far more awkward.

"Now tell me, why are you actually here." He said. His gaze never leaving mine.

"To give you your jacket back obviously." I said stuttering trying to look at anything, anything at all than his alluring eyes.

"You think I'll believe you, you know perfectly well you could've kept it." He said as he picked up my chin so I could look directly in his eyes..

"Tell me why you're here." He said but no word escaped my mouth.

"You're afraid aren't you?" He smirked as he held the side of my face, carrasively. I was dying over his touch. Only he could render me speechless.

"You know if you don't say anything, I'll let you go" he said with his last word whispered in my ear.

"If you don't tell me to, I won't kiss you, right now" he said flirtatiously but serious.

"Kiss me" I answered shamelessly.

And with that our lips slowly collided.

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Its shorter than my other chapters but I felt the chapter should end there.

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