Regain I ✔|EDITING|

chapter 10

His lips felt so soft against mine, no amount of dreaming could've prepared me for this . There was just nothing that could ruin a perfect moment like this.

But for that mere second. I thought of how this would ruin our friendship. Damit. How could I have done this, not sure of my feelings.

I just broke up with David and it felt like I was using him. He deserved a girl with a clear conscious. John would have put it behind him if I had told him to stay friends.

But I had to kiss him. To feel what it was like. And it felt good.

I pulled away from him with my hands against his chest. All I could hear was how heavy he was breathing, which complimented the passion in what we shared.

His eyes where filled with confusion. I mean who wouldn't.

"What is it"he asked concerned.

"I'm.. I'm sorry." I said while tears flooded my cheeks.

"What do you mean you're sorry?" he asked and now the love in his eyes was replaced with confusion.

"Um um I can't, I'm sorry." I stuttered knowing what I was saying wasn't easy. I ran out.

I ran to my car but John was catching up to me.

"Stoping running after me" I said wiping water from my face not from my tears but from the pouring rain. I ran around the car, while John following me this was beginning to look like a child game.

"I won't stop until you tell me why you like hurting me Ama, why do you like running away."

By this time I had stopped at the back of the car and he was standing in front of it.

"I'm not doing it on purpose, I'm not trying to hurt you. I just ...I just I don't know." I said pasing my head around. "You recently got back into my life and that made me happy. That I had my best friend back. I liked David until the incident and this is too soon. I don't want to use you for my broken heart ."

He just looked up to me. And a silence was upon us.

"You don't just kiss anyone, the look in your eyes tells me there's a part of you that wants to be with me or else you wouldn't have told me to kiss you. Tell me something, I want your heart to speak now, only your heart. Tell me, you love me, right. You know the longer we stand here, the higher the chances will both get sick."

I giggled with what he said.

"Do you love me?" He asked again more confidently waiting for my answer.

"Yea" I answered shyly looking to the floor and my drenched clothes. My eyes got wide open as I realized my shirt did not hide anything. I quickly zipped my jacket all the way up as he laughed softly at this.

"Then be with me" he said as he came closer and held me on the sides.

"Make me the happiest man in the world."

I laughed," You're saying it like I accepted your marriage proposal."

"Same difference, because if you do then you would be making a goal I secretly had since I was eighteen years old finally come true."

"Since we were teenagers?" He answered back by nodding. I liked him then and he..he liked me back?

"You liked me since then?"

"Yea, more than you can imagine." He replied.

I came closer to him and slapped him hard on the face. I regretted doing it realizing I had put too much force on it.

"Why would you do that?" He grumbled holding his face.

"I don't know! Why didn't you tell me you liked me, my life could've been different, with you, and not David. You know how hard it was for me to say goodbye to you, loosing my friend and the guy I loved."

He slowly moved his hand from his face and looked up to me when he heard my last words."love?" "You loved me" by this time a smile crept on his face.

"Say that again. " he smiled as we were inches closer. "My first major love." I whispered in his ear. He held one of my cheeks and planted a passionate kiss on my skin.

Our lips eventually met and everything just seemed right other than the fact that we were under water.

I pulled away slowly " I love you JJ but I need to leave. I'm going to catch a cold if I don't get back home. This rain won't stop for no one." I giggled and he smiled. He let go of me and with that came a wind I didn't like. Feeling so unprotected.

" I don't want you to leave, not right now it's raining, how about we go inside and you can leave when it's over." He begged me holding my two hands to his chest.

"No thank you, it's better I go now, it won't stop now and I need to finish up things." I said kindly rejecting his offer.

You could tell he was a little sad but then he smiled widely like a light bulb in his head went ting"As long as you'll come back as my girlfriend." He replied and all I could do was smile. I ran towards the door of my car but before I could make it. I slipped and fell to the ground. Ouch.

John ran to me asking how I was. All I could feel was embarrassment after confessing our love for each other. My behind got karma it did not deserve.

"I'm fine, really, I'll just go home. I'll text you later." He helped me stand up and I got into the car and drive of. I was soaked and I hoped John was ohk, he was the least clothed one.

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I got back home and opened the door. It was dark but there was light coming through the windows. When I closed the door about to turn on the lights. I felt a large hand cover my mouth from behind me.

I tried screaming but it didn't help , and slowly all I could see was dark spots which turned into complete darkness.

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